What is the mania part of bipolar? (What are your symptoms?)

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annao
January 4, 2009 - 6:28 pm
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I guess I don't understand what bipolar is. From the internet and my not-so-helpful undergrad psych courses I thought bipolar was, as it used to be described, a manic-depressive disorder: a person would feel really high and then would fall really low. High as in hyper, active, a lot of energy; depressed as in sad, low. I don't feel I have the energy to be classed as hyper, I'm generally a low-key person. But reading the comments in the other post have me wondering.... I feel like my shopping can be out of control sometimes. I don't spend thousands of dollars at a time, but I can shop a lot, buy junk I don't need; sometimes I shop so much online I don't remember what I ordered or get surprised when a package shows up at my door. And the irritability, it's through the roof lately. Granted having two toddlers tries one's patience, but I completely lose it.

Initially I went to my doctor assuming i had post-partum depression, I had read that irritability could be a sign of depression. Later my psychiatrist suggested I may have bipolar, as I was having trouble sleeping and racing thoughts for a while after re-starting and upping my dose of Zoloft. I don't feel like I have mood swings... my mood is generally the same (low). (Although my feelings about things/people can change hourly/daily.)

Yes, I know I need to talk to my doctor about it....


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annao
January 4, 2009 - 6:28 pm
I guess I don't understand what bipolar is. From the internet and my not-so-helpful undergrad psych courses I thought bipolar was, as it used to be described, a manic-depressive disorder: a person would feel really high and then would fall really low. High as in hyper, active, a lot of energy; depressed as in sad, low. I don't feel I have the energy to be classed as hyper, I'm generally a low-key person. But reading the comments in the other post have me wondering.... I feel like my shopping can be out of control sometimes. I don't spend thousands of dollars at a time, but I can shop a lot, buy junk I don't need; sometimes I shop so much online I don't remember what I ordered or get surprised when a package shows up at my door. And the irritability, it's through the roof lately. Granted having two toddlers tries one's patience, but I completely lose it.

Initially I went to my doctor assuming i had post-partum depression, I had read that irritability could be a sign of depression. Later my psychiatrist suggested I may have bipolar, as I was having trouble sleeping and racing thoughts for a while after re-starting and upping my dose of Zoloft. I don't feel like I have mood swings... my mood is generally the same (low). (Although my feelings about things/people can change hourly/daily.)

Yes, I know I need to talk to my doctor about it....


brigette
January 4, 2009 - 8:12 pm
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As they do more studies they've been able to find that there are so many more forms of bipolar than just the manic-depressive type.

I've never notice extreme mood swings in myself, but after talking with my most recent psychiatrist (of 3 or 4 years now), it makes sense. My 'ups' or 'manic' days were me doing some really stupid things and not thinking about the consequences. My downs were irritation, aggravation, suicidal thoughts, self mutilation (cutting, though that was years and years ago) etc.

I don't have the energy to be a 'hyper' person either I was never like "i'm happy, I'm sad" so I never thought there may be more than just depression going on.

Oh, I have racing thoughts as well...not so fun huh?


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brigette
January 4, 2009 - 8:12 pm
As they do more studies they've been able to find that there are so many more forms of bipolar than just the manic-depressive type.

I've never notice extreme mood swings in myself, but after talking with my most recent psychiatrist (of 3 or 4 years now), it makes sense. My 'ups' or 'manic' days were me doing some really stupid things and not thinking about the consequences. My downs were irritation, aggravation, suicidal thoughts, self mutilation (cutting, though that was years and years ago) etc.

I don't have the energy to be a 'hyper' person either I was never like "i'm happy, I'm sad" so I never thought there may be more than just depression going on.

Oh, I have racing thoughts as well...not so fun huh?


mitch
January 5, 2009 - 12:22 am
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Many do not understand or better put recognize the swings until after thus the aftermath. I know for myself I have mood charted for years (maybe 5). I am cognitively able to see my moods in my charting and journals. Another way to view it is I am my own caretaker when reveiwing my charts and journal. When i recognize the mood swing direction I can then implement some CBT (cognitive behaviior therapy) to give a better balance.

This balance is not the mood disappating, more so it is the mood being held in check. An anaology is chess where the queen cannot move any longer all over the board, since she is stuck making one move at a time, This is because the med(s), which is a rook and a bishop and maybe a pawn prevent the queen from moving about in leaps and bounds.

I know i just got off on a tangent, however it is theraputic for me . I describe my mainc mood with another anology. NHRA drag racing and driving a 'funny car.' The car accelerates to 250mph or more then has a mechanical failure like the blower popping and you are stuck there for any length of time trying to recover, which for me can be many months when not medicated. The meds allow me to implement CBT. It is an ongoing and tireseome sturggle sometimes, but faith prevails over that.

Well, I am in a downward cycle today and this is my first day here, so forgive me if I don't make any sense. As far as the purchasing stuff, well, last year I was not med compliant, I was manic, and I spent approximately $20,000 on adult sites, ebay, and amazon. Ebay, I believe, was what ever degree of OCD I have exasperated by the mania. Metaphorically it was one demon dancing with another to the beat of destructioin. It was like my existence was not real unless that package arrived. It definelty was anxiety fueling the action to relieve anxiety and really not working at all. So a very unhealthy circle of events took place in the quest of self medicating. Lesson learned is "take my prescribed meds" no matter what and be honest with my tdoc and pdoc- period!!!!

Mitch


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mitch
January 5, 2009 - 12:22 am
Many do not understand or better put recognize the swings until after thus the aftermath. I know for myself I have mood charted for years (maybe 5). I am cognitively able to see my moods in my charting and journals. Another way to view it is I am my own caretaker when reveiwing my charts and journal. When i recognize the mood swing direction I can then implement some CBT (cognitive behaviior therapy) to give a better balance.

This balance is not the mood disappating, more so it is the mood being held in check. An anaology is chess where the queen cannot move any longer all over the board, since she is stuck making one move at a time, This is because the med(s), which is a rook and a bishop and maybe a pawn prevent the queen from moving about in leaps and bounds.

I know i just got off on a tangent, however it is theraputic for me . I describe my mainc mood with another anology. NHRA drag racing and driving a 'funny car.' The car accelerates to 250mph or more then has a mechanical failure like the blower popping and you are stuck there for any length of time trying to recover, which for me can be many months when not medicated. The meds allow me to implement CBT. It is an ongoing and tireseome sturggle sometimes, but faith prevails over that.

Well, I am in a downward cycle today and this is my first day here, so forgive me if I don't make any sense. As far as the purchasing stuff, well, last year I was not med compliant, I was manic, and I spent approximately $20,000 on adult sites, ebay, and amazon. Ebay, I believe, was what ever degree of OCD I have exasperated by the mania. Metaphorically it was one demon dancing with another to the beat of destructioin. It was like my existence was not real unless that package arrived. It definelty was anxiety fueling the action to relieve anxiety and really not working at all. So a very unhealthy circle of events took place in the quest of self medicating. Lesson learned is "take my prescribed meds" no matter what and be honest with my tdoc and pdoc- period!!!!

Mitch


Ratchef
January 5, 2009 - 3:12 am
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I guess I can just relate my own story, but I'll keep it short. When I'm hypomanic, or really really hypomanic but not quite manic I'll buy things for absolutely no reason. I'll start about 50 different projects at work or home that I neither have the expertise nor time nor resources to complete. I've gotten about 100 grand in debt over the past 10 years through completely impulsive decisions. I've driven my motorcycle through city streets at speeds in excess of 100mph. But somehow, I keep my job, keep my house, pay some of my bills, and generally continue to exist.

And the whole time, I have no cognitive awareness that there's something wrong. I feel great.

Full blown mania is different, I lose complete touch with reality, believe things that simply aren't possible, I've felt my entire body vibrate, quit jobs (many of them now that I look back) and speak four different trains of thought in the same sentence. Luckily none of these has gone on for more than a week.

When this is going on, I almost always know something is wrong.

thats just a bit of my story, but I hope it helps.



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Ratchef
January 5, 2009 - 3:12 am
I guess I can just relate my own story, but I'll keep it short. When I'm hypomanic, or really really hypomanic but not quite manic I'll buy things for absolutely no reason. I'll start about 50 different projects at work or home that I neither have the expertise nor time nor resources to complete. I've gotten about 100 grand in debt over the past 10 years through completely impulsive decisions. I've driven my motorcycle through city streets at speeds in excess of 100mph. But somehow, I keep my job, keep my house, pay some of my bills, and generally continue to exist.

And the whole time, I have no cognitive awareness that there's something wrong. I feel great.

Full blown mania is different, I lose complete touch with reality, believe things that simply aren't possible, I've felt my entire body vibrate, quit jobs (many of them now that I look back) and speak four different trains of thought in the same sentence. Luckily none of these has gone on for more than a week.

When this is going on, I almost always know something is wrong.

thats just a bit of my story, but I hope it helps.



ajstark623
January 5, 2009 - 7:32 pm
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my manias vary.
sometimes its shopping, sometimes it eating, sometimes I get so hyper I'm like a little kid who has had too much sugar. My thoughts race I can have trouble sleeping. I have trouble keeping my train of thought and I start things that I don't finish. My more recent ones I have this urge to clean in the middle of the night. I think sometimes Mania can be mistaken for OCD or they just go hand and hand.

Amanda



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ajstark623
January 5, 2009 - 7:32 pm
my manias vary.
sometimes its shopping, sometimes it eating, sometimes I get so hyper I'm like a little kid who has had too much sugar. My thoughts race I can have trouble sleeping. I have trouble keeping my train of thought and I start things that I don't finish. My more recent ones I have this urge to clean in the middle of the night. I think sometimes Mania can be mistaken for OCD or they just go hand and hand.

Amanda



Jester39
January 14, 2009 - 9:32 am
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to Amanda:

thank you for mentioning mania and OCD... I've thought I have OCD but know I'm not "full-blown" over-compulsive, so it makes sense that it's probably just the mania... it could also be that I'm just a "picky" person, a polite word for what others call me, LOL


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January 14, 2009 - 9:32 am
to Amanda:

thank you for mentioning mania and OCD... I've thought I have OCD but know I'm not "full-blown" over-compulsive, so it makes sense that it's probably just the mania... it could also be that I'm just a "picky" person, a polite word for what others call me, LOL


HoosierK
January 19, 2009 - 11:57 am
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A very educational although sometimes lengthy read is www.psycheducation.org/depress...
About 3/4s through this specific article is a heading "Anxious depression could be 'bipolar'?!"


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January 19, 2009 - 11:57 am
A very educational although sometimes lengthy read is www.psycheducation.org/depress...
About 3/4s through this specific article is a heading "Anxious depression could be 'bipolar'?!"


The only place that you can find perfection on Earth today is in the dictionary.
miyaclark
January 26, 2009 - 2:21 pm
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My mania feels great, and I've learned to stay out of trouble (sex, spending, staying up for days, etc.) during my manic episodes. However, I try to avoid them at all costs now. It's important to understand that the mania itself isn't the only difficult stage to manage. The destruction following a manic phase often lasts longer and the consequences are often more devastating. If you're up for days, your body is trashed. If you've spent thousands of dollars, you may not be able to pay the rent. If you've had risky sex, you're in danger of a disease. Many people embrace their mania and refuse to take preventive medications because it feels so good. I've found that the consequences just aren't worth the 'high'.


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January 26, 2009 - 2:21 pm
My mania feels great, and I've learned to stay out of trouble (sex, spending, staying up for days, etc.) during my manic episodes. However, I try to avoid them at all costs now. It's important to understand that the mania itself isn't the only difficult stage to manage. The destruction following a manic phase often lasts longer and the consequences are often more devastating. If you're up for days, your body is trashed. If you've spent thousands of dollars, you may not be able to pay the rent. If you've had risky sex, you're in danger of a disease. Many people embrace their mania and refuse to take preventive medications because it feels so good. I've found that the consequences just aren't worth the 'high'.


liezelj17
January 30, 2009 - 11:18 pm
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I am really enjoying this site compared to all the other bipolar forums and mood trackers out there. I just joined 3 days ago and I can really relate to everyone here. I have been struggling with depression since I was 15.

I just got diagnosed a year ago with bipolar and I am still learning about everything. I went to seek help when I started seeing things and having thoughts about killing my husband, I had these crazy vivid dreams that felt so real that I was so scared to sleep because I thought I would have another bad dream. The doctor then told me it was a manic episode. I have never felt like that before. I was scared of myself. i have only felt like thay once it didnt last more than a week or so,

In a period pf hypomania I try and be more productive. Aside from breastfeeding and caring for a newborn and caring for a toddler and my 8 year old son, I cleaned and sanitized the washroom in every nook and cranny, did 5 loads of laundry, organzed my bedroom,and baked 3 2 tierd cakes... it is past midnight and i am wide awake and feeling good. ... im still feel wired At least i know i didnt overspend or do anything that would hurt me later...




Style you can afford to have a manic epoisode on . . . http://www.shopaholic.weebly.c...
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liezelj17
January 30, 2009 - 11:18 pm
I am really enjoying this site compared to all the other bipolar forums and mood trackers out there. I just joined 3 days ago and I can really relate to everyone here. I have been struggling with depression since I was 15.

I just got diagnosed a year ago with bipolar and I am still learning about everything. I went to seek help when I started seeing things and having thoughts about killing my husband, I had these crazy vivid dreams that felt so real that I was so scared to sleep because I thought I would have another bad dream. The doctor then told me it was a manic episode. I have never felt like that before. I was scared of myself. i have only felt like thay once it didnt last more than a week or so,

In a period pf hypomania I try and be more productive. Aside from breastfeeding and caring for a newborn and caring for a toddler and my 8 year old son, I cleaned and sanitized the washroom in every nook and cranny, did 5 loads of laundry, organzed my bedroom,and baked 3 2 tierd cakes... it is past midnight and i am wide awake and feeling good. ... im still feel wired At least i know i didnt overspend or do anything that would hurt me later...




Style you can afford to have a manic epoisode on . . . http://www.shopaholic.weebly.c...
essjaycee
February 13, 2009 - 1:22 am
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hmm. Hypersexuality is the number one manic symptom I suffer from. It causes a lot a problems for me. I get very irritable, angry, and hostile. I seek confrontation. I don't need much sleep to function, racing thoughts, random ideas, I'm very impulsive, I smoke, I stay up late late late, I talk fast, can't focus or concentrate, easliy distracted (attention deficit), I experience obsessive behavior, I get paranoid, poor judgement, I have a history of self injury, at times I get really hyper and fidgety, can't stop moving. I'm sure that's not all. But that's all I can think of right now.


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February 13, 2009 - 1:22 am
hmm. Hypersexuality is the number one manic symptom I suffer from. It causes a lot a problems for me. I get very irritable, angry, and hostile. I seek confrontation. I don't need much sleep to function, racing thoughts, random ideas, I'm very impulsive, I smoke, I stay up late late late, I talk fast, can't focus or concentrate, easliy distracted (attention deficit), I experience obsessive behavior, I get paranoid, poor judgement, I have a history of self injury, at times I get really hyper and fidgety, can't stop moving. I'm sure that's not all. But that's all I can think of right now.


symbeline
February 14, 2009 - 12:39 am
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My hypomania is a lot like essjaycee's. In addition to those symptoms or characteristics, I also get a brain fog (in both depressed and hypomanic states) with memory blanks, and an inability to sequence when I'm talking (I confuse my own streams of thought).


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February 14, 2009 - 12:39 am
My hypomania is a lot like essjaycee's. In addition to those symptoms or characteristics, I also get a brain fog (in both depressed and hypomanic states) with memory blanks, and an inability to sequence when I'm talking (I confuse my own streams of thought).


gorgeousgab
February 16, 2009 - 8:16 pm
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i feel very ambitious and hyper and joyful, but at the same time VERY irritable and sometimes that causes me to cry. I fly off the handle and when I think back on it, it's kind of embarrassing. I like to just go out too, just go out and stay out. Speeding my car around and spending. I LOVE to shop, it gives me a high. I do whatever gives me a highs. Shopping, sex, running (i'm a runner), and i notice i self medicate with booze and pills sometimes. My husband tries to force me to sleep, so I get around 3 or 4 hrs of sleep.


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February 16, 2009 - 8:16 pm
i feel very ambitious and hyper and joyful, but at the same time VERY irritable and sometimes that causes me to cry. I fly off the handle and when I think back on it, it's kind of embarrassing. I like to just go out too, just go out and stay out. Speeding my car around and spending. I LOVE to shop, it gives me a high. I do whatever gives me a highs. Shopping, sex, running (i'm a runner), and i notice i self medicate with booze and pills sometimes. My husband tries to force me to sleep, so I get around 3 or 4 hrs of sleep.


ajneat
February 17, 2009 - 4:21 am
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mine is alot like essjaycee's. but also love to spend money that i don't have so not allowed to have any more credit cards.



Medications for February 2009
09-08-2008 - Present:Trileptal, 450 mg. twice a day
09-08-2008 - Present:Seroquel, 450 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Wellbutrin, 300 mg. at morning
09-08-2008 - Present:klonopin, 1 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Klonopin, .5. 1 p.m.
09-08-2008 - Present:Trileptal, 450 mg. twice a day
09-08-2008 - Present:Seroquel, 450 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Wellbutrin, 300 mg. at morning
09-08-2008 - Present:klonopin, 1 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Klonopin, .5. 1 p.m.
02-09-2009 - Present:Lexapro, 10 mg. in the morning
02-09-2009 - Present:Effexor, 75 mg. morning
02-09-2009 - Present:klonopin, .5. morning

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ajneat
February 17, 2009 - 4:21 am
mine is alot like essjaycee's. but also love to spend money that i don't have so not allowed to have any more credit cards.



Medications for February 2009
09-08-2008 - Present:Trileptal, 450 mg. twice a day
09-08-2008 - Present:Seroquel, 450 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Wellbutrin, 300 mg. at morning
09-08-2008 - Present:klonopin, 1 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Klonopin, .5. 1 p.m.
09-08-2008 - Present:Trileptal, 450 mg. twice a day
09-08-2008 - Present:Seroquel, 450 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Wellbutrin, 300 mg. at morning
09-08-2008 - Present:klonopin, 1 mg. at night
09-08-2008 - Present:Klonopin, .5. 1 p.m.
02-09-2009 - Present:Lexapro, 10 mg. in the morning
02-09-2009 - Present:Effexor, 75 mg. morning
02-09-2009 - Present:klonopin, .5. morning

Moonshowers
February 17, 2009 - 8:13 pm
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My Bipolar:

Mania- shopping to excess / spending more than I ever should on one object.
Being silly to the extent of perverse and inappropriate jokes &
comments.Inappropriate gestures. (Past w/alcohol- uninhibited
behavior,excessive drinking & blacking out.) Cleaning and talking to
myself like a conversation (usually arguing out a case.) Pet collecting...dogs, ferrets, cat, hamsters & lizard.

Depression: weepy, agitated, yelling, not showering,not shaving,hiding in my
room & dwelling on things that make me more upset. Just wan
to be alone...plain & simple. Suicidal ideations dance around my head at times...but I try to dismiss them quickly. Been there....NO MORE.Oh,
feeling flat...numb. No energy to do housework/cook...useless.


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Moonshowers
February 17, 2009 - 8:13 pm
My Bipolar:

Mania- shopping to excess / spending more than I ever should on one object.
Being silly to the extent of perverse and inappropriate jokes &
comments.Inappropriate gestures. (Past w/alcohol- uninhibited
behavior,excessive drinking & blacking out.) Cleaning and talking to
myself like a conversation (usually arguing out a case.) Pet collecting...dogs, ferrets, cat, hamsters & lizard.

Depression: weepy, agitated, yelling, not showering,not shaving,hiding in my
room & dwelling on things that make me more upset. Just wan
to be alone...plain & simple. Suicidal ideations dance around my head at times...but I try to dismiss them quickly. Been there....NO MORE.Oh,
feeling flat...numb. No energy to do housework/cook...useless.


mr8froggy
February 17, 2009 - 10:20 pm
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i rapid cycle most of the time... so i go thru the elevated mood near as much as the depressed mood... then there is the episodes that i have that seem to be more depressed and morbid... this is my first chart i have kept... i have been in counseling and on meds for almost 2 years... and still not stable... my sleep is very affected thru these moods... i am most manic in the mornings with racing uncontollable thoughts... and they go with whatever mood i am in ... very unpredictiable... and disturbing...i get very irratable and agitated easily.... my life is revieled by the chart...

when i am manic... i spend too much money, go for tattoos, and try to talk alot, but i do go places when i am manic... when i am depresssed i lose all energy and motivattion to even move... it is very difficult to do the minimum around the house... i sleep when i can do nothing else.



Medications for February 2009
01-25-2007 - Present:abilify, 30 mg. 1 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:carbamazepine, 600 mg. 2 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:clonazepam, 1 mg. 2 x daily
04-01-2007 - Present:buspirone, 10 mg. 30 mg daily
04-01-2007 - Present:sertraline, 150 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2008 - Present:simvastatin, 80 mg. 1 x daily
08-01-2008 - Present:asprin, 81 mg. 1 x daily
08-29-2008 - Present:zolpidem, 10 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2007 - Present:abilify, 30 mg. 1 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:carbamazepine, 600 mg. 2 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:clonazepam, 1 mg. 2 x daily
04-01-2007 - Present:buspirone, 10 mg. 30 mg daily
04-01-2007 - Present:sertraline, 150 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2008 - Present:simvastatin, 80 mg. 1 x daily
08-01-2008 - Present:asprin, 81 mg. 1 x daily
08-29-2008 - Present:zolpidem, 10 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:ropinirole, 2 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:provigil, 100 mg. 1-2 daily
01-25-2007 - Present:abilify, 30 mg. 1 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:carbamazepine, 600 mg. 2 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:clonazepam, 1 mg. 2 x daily
04-01-2007 - Present:buspirone, 10 mg. 30 mg daily
04-01-2007 - Present:sertraline, 150 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2008 - Present:simvastatin, 80 mg. 1 x daily
08-01-2008 - Present:asprin, 81 mg. 1 x daily
08-29-2008 - Present:zolpidem, 10 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:ropinirole, 2 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:provigil, 100 mg. 1-2 daily
02-13-2009 - Present:geodon, 20 mg. 2 x daily

karen
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mr8froggy
February 17, 2009 - 10:20 pm
i rapid cycle most of the time... so i go thru the elevated mood near as much as the depressed mood... then there is the episodes that i have that seem to be more depressed and morbid... this is my first chart i have kept... i have been in counseling and on meds for almost 2 years... and still not stable... my sleep is very affected thru these moods... i am most manic in the mornings with racing uncontollable thoughts... and they go with whatever mood i am in ... very unpredictiable... and disturbing...i get very irratable and agitated easily.... my life is revieled by the chart...

when i am manic... i spend too much money, go for tattoos, and try to talk alot, but i do go places when i am manic... when i am depresssed i lose all energy and motivattion to even move... it is very difficult to do the minimum around the house... i sleep when i can do nothing else.



Medications for February 2009
01-25-2007 - Present:abilify, 30 mg. 1 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:carbamazepine, 600 mg. 2 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:clonazepam, 1 mg. 2 x daily
04-01-2007 - Present:buspirone, 10 mg. 30 mg daily
04-01-2007 - Present:sertraline, 150 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2008 - Present:simvastatin, 80 mg. 1 x daily
08-01-2008 - Present:asprin, 81 mg. 1 x daily
08-29-2008 - Present:zolpidem, 10 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2007 - Present:abilify, 30 mg. 1 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:carbamazepine, 600 mg. 2 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:clonazepam, 1 mg. 2 x daily
04-01-2007 - Present:buspirone, 10 mg. 30 mg daily
04-01-2007 - Present:sertraline, 150 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2008 - Present:simvastatin, 80 mg. 1 x daily
08-01-2008 - Present:asprin, 81 mg. 1 x daily
08-29-2008 - Present:zolpidem, 10 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:ropinirole, 2 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:provigil, 100 mg. 1-2 daily
01-25-2007 - Present:abilify, 30 mg. 1 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:carbamazepine, 600 mg. 2 x daily
03-01-2007 - Present:clonazepam, 1 mg. 2 x daily
04-01-2007 - Present:buspirone, 10 mg. 30 mg daily
04-01-2007 - Present:sertraline, 150 mg. 1 x daily
01-25-2008 - Present:simvastatin, 80 mg. 1 x daily
08-01-2008 - Present:asprin, 81 mg. 1 x daily
08-29-2008 - Present:zolpidem, 10 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:ropinirole, 2 mg. 1 x daily
02-09-2009 - Present:provigil, 100 mg. 1-2 daily
02-13-2009 - Present:geodon, 20 mg. 2 x daily

karen
Mooky
February 18, 2009 - 9:23 am
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Mooky
Total Posts: 203
Joined: 01-27-2009
When I'm manic I obsess. I'm a writer. I don't eat, sleep, talk to people or remember to even use the restroom until I'm ready to burst. Sometimes I get the happy kind of mania but not often. For me it's just my brain going on nine different tracks at the same time and most are parts of books. I have been known to be working on three books simultaneously. As a child it was poetry, most compared to Edgar Allen Poe. I don't know why but I write depressing poems whether depressed or happy.
I live way out in the country an have only one neighbor that's a hermit so I'm kind of glad I obsess some times. It sure beats the boredom of staying at home all the time with nothing but housework to do.
I do not over shop or self medicate with alcohol or drugs mostly because I don't drive often because I can scare myself on the road because I get sudden urges to drive off bridges and stuff and deliberately avoid e-bay etc...
I speak rapidly and tend to tap my foot, become irritable and have something akin to panic attacks if I can't get to my laptop and write when I'm hypomanic.

Depression for me is the standard one most people think of.
I have no energy, cry because the Twix rabbit didn't get the Twix, feel lonely and unwanted. I don't eat much and can forget to shower for a week.
I do become hypersexual wish I did know was a BP symptom until I read some of the entries people have written
My husband just said I was a part time nympho.
There is free floating anxiety at this time but I only just learned to recognize that.


Even a small child can carry a ton of bricks.
All they have to do is do it one at a time.
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Mooky
February 18, 2009 - 9:23 am
When I'm manic I obsess. I'm a writer. I don't eat, sleep, talk to people or remember to even use the restroom until I'm ready to burst. Sometimes I get the happy kind of mania but not often. For me it's just my brain going on nine different tracks at the same time and most are parts of books. I have been known to be working on three books simultaneously. As a child it was poetry, most compared to Edgar Allen Poe. I don't know why but I write depressing poems whether depressed or happy.
I live way out in the country an have only one neighbor that's a hermit so I'm kind of glad I obsess some times. It sure beats the boredom of staying at home all the time with nothing but housework to do.
I do not over shop or self medicate with alcohol or drugs mostly because I don't drive often because I can scare myself on the road because I get sudden urges to drive off bridges and stuff and deliberately avoid e-bay etc...
I speak rapidly and tend to tap my foot, become irritable and have something akin to panic attacks if I can't get to my laptop and write when I'm hypomanic.

Depression for me is the standard one most people think of.
I have no energy, cry because the Twix rabbit didn't get the Twix, feel lonely and unwanted. I don't eat much and can forget to shower for a week.
I do become hypersexual wish I did know was a BP symptom until I read some of the entries people have written
My husband just said I was a part time nympho.
There is free floating anxiety at this time but I only just learned to recognize that.


Even a small child can carry a ton of bricks.
All they have to do is do it one at a time.
Lizabeth
February 18, 2009 - 11:03 am
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Total Posts: 146
Joined: 01-04-2009
Mooky---I think we are twins in a lot of our symptoms except I don't get hypersexual.

I have Bipolar two

Depression: pretty much textbook, i feel overwhelmingly sad, everything is worthless especially me, my energy is zero and life is overwhelming and pointless. I overeat instead of undereat but that could be my meds. I worry about everything and enjoy almost nothing including activities that I usually love to do. Usually I can do even things I don't enjoy (like housework) quickly and efficiently, when I am depressed I just sit and stare at the dustbunnies and get annoyed because my cats shed.

Hypomania: extreme irritability which I work hard to hide. I want to crawl out of my skin. My thoughts go so fast I can't keep up and I am also thinking of more than one thing at a time. My concentration is shot. i freeze up and the only thing I ever get sort of done is housework (I don't know why but its true) I get easily overwhelmed by stimuli I usually enjoy, like music and my favorite tv programs. Life, the universe, and everything seems stupid and pointless. My anxiety rachets up by several notches (and I am a worrier even at my 'baseline') I must stop typing now, listing this is too depressing.

Oh--and sleep is problematic in either state without meds. When my meds are being adjusted (like now) I don't sleep and then I feel depressed and Manic at the same time. Yeech. Really stopping now. (The sleep on my chart is little bits at a time all added up---they have no way to note interrupted sleep.)



Medications for February 2009
01-04-2009 - Present:Clonazempam, 0.5. BID PRN
01-04-2009 - Present:Ambien CR, 12.5. qhs
01-04-2009 - Present:Pravastatin , 20 mg. qhs
01-07-2009 - Present:Benazepril Hcl., 10 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Multivitamin, 1 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:ASA, 85 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Calcium/Vit.D, 1200 mg. q day
01-07-2009 - Present:invega, 6 mg. qday.
01-04-2009 - Present:Clonazempam, 0.5. BID PRN
01-04-2009 - Present:Ambien CR, 12.5. qhs
01-04-2009 - Present:Pravastatin , 20 mg. qhs
01-07-2009 - Present:Benazepril Hcl., 10 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Multivitamin, 1 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:ASA, 85 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Calcium/Vit.D, 1200 mg. q day
01-07-2009 - Present:invega, 6 mg. qday.
02-15-2009 - Present:Cymbalta 30 mg. q day, 30 mg. once daily

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Lizabeth
Lizabeth
February 18, 2009 - 11:03 am
Mooky---I think we are twins in a lot of our symptoms except I don't get hypersexual.

I have Bipolar two

Depression: pretty much textbook, i feel overwhelmingly sad, everything is worthless especially me, my energy is zero and life is overwhelming and pointless. I overeat instead of undereat but that could be my meds. I worry about everything and enjoy almost nothing including activities that I usually love to do. Usually I can do even things I don't enjoy (like housework) quickly and efficiently, when I am depressed I just sit and stare at the dustbunnies and get annoyed because my cats shed.

Hypomania: extreme irritability which I work hard to hide. I want to crawl out of my skin. My thoughts go so fast I can't keep up and I am also thinking of more than one thing at a time. My concentration is shot. i freeze up and the only thing I ever get sort of done is housework (I don't know why but its true) I get easily overwhelmed by stimuli I usually enjoy, like music and my favorite tv programs. Life, the universe, and everything seems stupid and pointless. My anxiety rachets up by several notches (and I am a worrier even at my 'baseline') I must stop typing now, listing this is too depressing.

Oh--and sleep is problematic in either state without meds. When my meds are being adjusted (like now) I don't sleep and then I feel depressed and Manic at the same time. Yeech. Really stopping now. (The sleep on my chart is little bits at a time all added up---they have no way to note interrupted sleep.)



Medications for February 2009
01-04-2009 - Present:Clonazempam, 0.5. BID PRN
01-04-2009 - Present:Ambien CR, 12.5. qhs
01-04-2009 - Present:Pravastatin , 20 mg. qhs
01-07-2009 - Present:Benazepril Hcl., 10 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Multivitamin, 1 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:ASA, 85 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Calcium/Vit.D, 1200 mg. q day
01-07-2009 - Present:invega, 6 mg. qday.
01-04-2009 - Present:Clonazempam, 0.5. BID PRN
01-04-2009 - Present:Ambien CR, 12.5. qhs
01-04-2009 - Present:Pravastatin , 20 mg. qhs
01-07-2009 - Present:Benazepril Hcl., 10 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Multivitamin, 1 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:ASA, 85 mg. one
01-07-2009 - Present:Calcium/Vit.D, 1200 mg. q day
01-07-2009 - Present:invega, 6 mg. qday.
02-15-2009 - Present:Cymbalta 30 mg. q day, 30 mg. once daily

CAhulaw2007
March 3, 2009 - 9:31 am
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CAhulaw2007
Total Posts: 55
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There are different levels of mania for me and it is always mixed mania --usually. At its worst I am so hypersexual it is embarrassing to me and it makes my partner shy away from me. I also have about 250,000 in debt and am in the middle of a bankruptcy - - which I think is at least partly due to bipolar. I have had visual and auditory hallucinations and have been hospitalized in patient four times and out patient -- hell, I don;t know how many times actually. I tend to have thoughts whizzing along in my head like snatches of conversations, a running commentary on everything going on around me, conversations I THINK I might have with people in the future to the point where all I can really hear is static. I take risperdal and my mind goes quiet. That's good. It is such a relief. However, I hate risperdal. So I imagine i will be wanting to stop it soon because I hate it so much. Anyway, this was probably not coherent or helpful. I am not sure how I feel today - I am hoping the mood tracker will help me see some patterns because I am having a hard time seeing them myself.



Current medications as of 03-03-2009
03-02-2009 - Present: Abilify, 5 mg. nightly
03-02-2009 - Present: Lamictal, 300 mg. p.m.
03-02-2009 - Present: Risperdal, 1 mg. 2 x per day
03-02-2009 - Present: Wellbutrin, 300 mg. a.m.

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CAhulaw2007
March 3, 2009 - 9:31 am
There are different levels of mania for me and it is always mixed mania --usually. At its worst I am so hypersexual it is embarrassing to me and it makes my partner shy away from me. I also have about 250,000 in debt and am in the middle of a bankruptcy - - which I think is at least partly due to bipolar. I have had visual and auditory hallucinations and have been hospitalized in patient four times and out patient -- hell, I don;t know how many times actually. I tend to have thoughts whizzing along in my head like snatches of conversations, a running commentary on everything going on around me, conversations I THINK I might have with people in the future to the point where all I can really hear is static. I take risperdal and my mind goes quiet. That's good. It is such a relief. However, I hate risperdal. So I imagine i will be wanting to stop it soon because I hate it so much. Anyway, this was probably not coherent or helpful. I am not sure how I feel today - I am hoping the mood tracker will help me see some patterns because I am having a hard time seeing them myself.



Current medications as of 03-03-2009
03-02-2009 - Present: Abilify, 5 mg. nightly
03-02-2009 - Present: Lamictal, 300 mg. p.m.
03-02-2009 - Present: Risperdal, 1 mg. 2 x per day
03-02-2009 - Present: Wellbutrin, 300 mg. a.m.

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