Spanner,
You are not alone lots of us on this forum know about how you feel because we feel it too. Maybe if you could get to some helpful medical help. I am not sure of your doctor care, but that can be helpful. Get yourself some kind of talk therapy that may work in your benefit, it kind of alleviates you and gives you some space that you need safe space rather than your personal surroundings such as home and your spouse since that is where the throws of manic depressive desease exists. You can feel very alienated from loved ones even when they are there. Don't give up on medication changes I just found one that has quieted my mind and I do feel like a healthy human almost like I am safe at shore, its what we all keep looking for some sanity, I keep praying that God will help me with my mind and my thoughts with with this is and heal me and I ask he will use the medicine to help and not harm me. But, you are not alone. Chin up... I had such problems with my memory it wasn't funny, when I was attending a science class at school my lab partner and I would go over the parts of the skeleton to memorize and we would look at say 3 parts name them and then check with each other to name them. It was pretty embarassing, I couldn't tell her. I felt like a dumb blonde, I miss my former self. The one who got A's on tests the one who could recall information. When I was in the hospital, I wanted to reach back for my old life and just live that one again, but it was like it wasn't there. I could not grasp that anymore. Its tough to not have memories or to remember alot of stuff. You feel pretty vulnerable.
Medications for January 3, 2014 to February 2, 2014
| 01-24-2014 - Present: | Seroquel xr increase by 100 mg from 450 to, 550mg. 50mg morning 500mg night( add 2 50mg.s at nite |
10-20-2013 - Present: | Seroquel XR , 450 mg. 50mg in morning 400mg at bedtime |
10-19-2013 - Present: | wellbutrin or buproprion, 450 mg. one tab in morning |
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| 10-20-2013 - Present: | Seroquel XR , 450 mg. 50mg in morning 400mg at bedtime |
10-19-2013 - Present: | wellbutrin or buproprion, 450 mg. one tab in morning |
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keep calm and sing on
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