I'm Back

I know that I have been "away" for a long time. I have quite a few updates to mention(if I can remember them all).

1.) Medication changes.
2.) Getting a divorce.
3.) My diagnosis has increased.


First of all the medication changes. As u can see on my mood thingie, I'm on a different regimen.

Second of all. The idiot who I was with for awhile/was married to filed for divorce late last year, and it was finalized this year.

Third of all. The diagnosis. I've still got Bipolar Type 2, but I have two more diagnoses that I think need to be brought up. The first of the two. PTSD; that diagnosis was due to my ex's abusive behavior toward me when we were together. The second diagnosis of the two. Bipolar depression with psychosis.

I just wanted to bring an update, and I will most definitely be on here more often. I just had to make sure I started keeping up with the mood tracking thing, and to update the pills I'm on.

Oh, and BTW. I got a TE(transitional employment) through Frontier House. Folding boxes at Papa John's. Fun stuff. Only getting paid minimum wage, and it's not enough to scratch either my food stamps, my food bank commodities, or my SSI. I get paid $10.20 an hour. I don't work more than close to two hours a day, three days a week. I work Monday, Wednesday and Friday. I'm supposed to start my shift at 10 in the morning, but I get there kind of early, so I can get started right away and end my shift early. Usually, Fridays are busy for me, but I get the job done. I get paid every other week, so I get to bug the manager about my paycheck on the days I am supposed to get it. Sometimes the checks aren't in until 3 in the afternoon, so I just get it after my next shift.

Medications:

Prenatal Vitamins(taken in the morning)
Lithium 300mg(in the morning)
Lithium 600mg(in the evening)
Inderal 20mg(in the morning)
Inderal 20mg(in the evening)
Wellbutrin 150mg(in the morning with 300mg tab to equal 450mg)
Wellbutrin 300mg(in the morning with 150mg tab to equal 450mg)
Cogentin 1mg (in the morning)
Cogentin 1mg (in the evening)
Abilify 10mg (in the morning)
MiniPress 1mg(in the morning)
MiniPress 1mg(in the evening)

Hey Anime good to see you!

Sounds like you are doing pretty well. I was off for a while too. I check in from time to time now but people aren’t posting as much :(

Your diagnosis change is interesting, bipolar with psychosis is something I’ve been thinking about lately. I know when I have an episode manic/mixed/depressive etc I see shadow people and hear whispering, if I am depressed they tell me not so nice things, otherwise I can’t mak3 it out. In between episodes I don’t usually see anything. I take 400mg Seroquel in the evening as a antipsychotic and it helps with sleep.

As far as I know they’ve never added psychosis to my diagnosis. I guess my question is how do your issues come on

Blues

My episodes are not the "normal" Bipolar ones. They are more on the negative side of things. My episodes contain these actions: screaming, yelling, cursing, frothing at the mouth(not so much as drool but just as "spit" coming out of my mouth, hense the frothing) and more often than not, SI. I know that most people who have episodes are witnessed by others and turned in(mind u the "turned in" bit means having the authorities called on them and then immediately taken to a mental ward for treatment). I'm in a situation where if I have them and I am in the middle of an episode, that means me calling on myself because the person who is "dealing with" me is too lazy to call on me and call the facility of my choice and tell them I need involuntary treatment for a month because that's what they were told by the people at another mental ward years ago and it never got told and I was always discharged 3 days later. Anyways....

Didn't mean to go into a possibly triggery issue. The reason behind the Bipolar Depression w/ psychosis is the reason I explained before. Sorry if I got on anyone's last nerves.

Anime you didn’t bother me at all.

I’ve just been having more issues lately with voices lately, stress and anxiety levels are thru the roof to say the least. My stepmom isn’t doing well with her Alzheimer’s and I get physically and mentally attacked by her daily so that doesn’t help. I have an appointment with my regular dr tomorrow for blood pressure check and then then with pdoc the next day bc of they freaking voices

I decided to throw the towel. I gave my 2 week notice for my job. Already someone has been chosen to take my place in the work position. My last day is tomorrow. I will pick up my final check(which came in today) and do some work tomorrow, but that's about it. I am half glad, half regreting the decision I made last week. My mom is going to be so p***ed off at my decision. Yea I loved the job, but there was no verbal communication besides me asking about my paycheck when it was to be handed over. I only engaged in ONE conversation with someone that worked there, but I feel like I should be included in conversations, even if they have nothing to do with me or if I don't know exactly what in the world they're even speaking of.

Today, first time in a long time(at least since being on the MiniPress), I got paranoid. One of my ex boyfriends is a member of Frontier House. He gives me the creeps. I get paranoid easily and this one took the cake, so to speak. I have to find ways of NOT interacting with him. I don't like him, and he's a jerk. A player. Only wants u know which topic and that's it. Jerk.

Anime, I know how you feel with being left out of conversations, my last job was like that. Look around for a new job that is something you like doing