I recently got triggered into an episode by mucinexD, it was the pseudoephedrine..this time is was depression for 2 hours then mania for 2 hours in a 12 hour time period...ever since then I'd been cycling day to day then it changed to through the day plus barely sleeping. I stayed in touch with my dr...she took me off the buspar and I'm on seroquel just long enough to get back to usual, she says probably 4-6 weeks. I am feeling a lot better, it's been about 2 weeks on seroquel.
it is SO hard when we get triggered and trying to get back to a much more level place. I'm still watching myself but the anxiety levels have lessened, not so obsessive...my episodes used to be about 3 months long, that's how long it took to get through mania, spiraling into mixed, then crashing into depression, then finally coming back up. serious roller coaster. I've seen it written the bipolar coaster.
hang in there, I"m certain you've been through this before and come back up, that's what I tell myself, I've been through this and I can make it through again.
remember, depression lies to us and tells us things that when we are not depressed we know are not true.
I know it's tough, I've been in that place way too many times but I've managed to come back up.
the last really bad one, my dr's helped keep me out of the hospital by seeing my therapist twice a week and my psychiatrist once a week and being accompanied during the other times.
BUT...if you need the hospital, then go. it's a safe place to be if you are not feeling safe. having what I call 'crooked thoughts'. please, be safe