after over a week and a half of sleeping for 2 or 3 hours less than usual almost every evening and still having energy to keep going all day, i started to feel all the stress of finding a house and money and things get on top of me and telling people i was feeling i was becoming down again, i started to sleep more (11 hours before i could even TRY and get up) and like within a few days of that, after a perceived rejection from my friend i had no one to help me move my stuff into my new flat and i was just too bleurgh to do it myself so i just lay there looking at it and so on. and basically i got very upset. I got VERY upset! and i did some self-hurty things. i was trying to kill myself... i think. but anyway i had already phoned the crisis team which is a thing they have in the uk for when you are in danger cos of your mental health or something. and they had phone the police and paramedics so i went to the hospital and stuff and so on. and basically my friends took me back home and i moved and i started work today (this is now two days later) and im feeling a little better, i felt elated at some points even, and now i have insomnia even though i didn't sleep much last night anyway!!!! so i'm wondering if i'm "coming up" as it were? IS THIS MY LIFE NOW?!?! i miss sleeping 8 hours
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Joined: 01-17-2011