I'm in the process of writing up a self-diagnosis suggestion to take to my GP. She is a also a psychologist/mental health specialist so I know she will understand and point me in the right direction. Cyclothymic disorder of the rapid cycling nature, and GAD. My major depressive episode and major manic episodes of the past were substance abuse related, so I don't qualify for full blown bipolar. This explains a lot to me as I have all the ups and downs but don't get the extremes unless I party too hard! I've always hidden behind my recurrent (multiple events) PTSD in denial about a deeper problem, but it feels good to be taking my mental health by the reigns and seeking help. Nervous but excited.
This too shall come to pass