First, I'll start by saying that most of what I'll tell you is anecdotal. I'm not a doctor or psychologist. However, I am a former pot smoker, so I will help as best as I can.
Marijuana, like any sort of substance, can have different effects on different people. Some people can smoke very little and become very high. Others can smoke large amounts and be completely functional. It very much depends on how you can personally handle it. If you can operate normally and well while consuming cannabis, more power to you.
However, there are some real dangers with marijuana when it comes to depression and anxiety. Pot usually is a-motivational, in that it makes you have less drive to do things. You can get tired, lazy, and feel like things are useless. As you can guess, this will probably make your depression a lot worse. It did for me.
Also, while pot can help you relax and unwind in the short run, most university studies show that heavy cannabis consumption is directly linked to higher levels of anxiety ( whether this connection is causal or not is up for debate, but something about THC in your brain/ bloodstream is what is believed to cause increased anxiety).
Also, if you're taking antidepressants, you should definitely talk to your doctor about if cannabis is safe to consume with your medications. Sometimes, there can be very negative side-effects, but it depends on what your doctor says.
Have you ever thought that what might be desirable about marijuana is the fact that you can use it in a group setting? Like drinking at a party, it can make you feel "connected", but I would really discourage you from seeking that kind of connection. Long run, it will always end badly. If you like using it to relax at night and sleep, there are much better alternatives. Exercising in the evening is a good way of regulating endorphins, and hot tea can be just as warm and relaxing as weed, minus the harmful psychoactive effects.
Stay strong, hopefully stay sober, and begin to feel better. You posses everything you need for those things already.
Current medications as of 04-03-2011
|02-12-2011 - Present:
||Citalopram, 40 mg. 1x Daily