Hi,
I am new to the site, and never participated in any online forum. I just want to see if anyone out there is in a similar predicament. I am a 38 yo male, first diagnosed with Major Dep. in 1998, so it's been quite a while. I lived with this thing knowing I will always use medication and doctors/therapists as a crutch but it never occurred to me it could be this bad. 15 months ago, my marriage failed, I gave up my job and my life spiraled out of my control. I find that I cannot work, I ceased contact with my friends and I prefer that my family stay away. I've been denied disability benefits (I'm appealing) and the savings I am living on is running out. I have no insurance and self-paying for doctor and meds. In 14 years I have tried almost every SSRI. My doc put me on Nortriptyline which is a tricyclic drug, but it's not really working. Between constant crying spells, anxiety esp going outside my appartment, restlessness and total inability to enjoy anything at all, life is pretty bleak. I'm pretty desperate, but my doc is a "slow and steady" approach kind of guy. I guess all I can do is hope for the best....
peace, luv
Joined: 02-20-2012