Just wanted to know if anyone could relate and how you deal with this. Anyways, I have depression and anxiety and it has been a really hard struggle for the majority of my life. Sometimes I'll be having a good day and then all of a sudden i feel something building inside of me and the feeling gets bigger and as its getting bigger i find myself losing the happiness i had and it takes forever to get it back. It happens so much i get anxiety about it. I call it the calm before the storm because it always seems to happen when I'm having a good or relaxing time, It's like a constant reminder that my depression/anxiety will never leave me. That it is a part of me. What i mean by building is that i can almost feel the sadness getting stronger within my body and soon it just consumes me for a while. I dont know if that makes sense but it's what happens. However, im not sure if it happens because im distracted from my depression when im having a good time and then when i am in that environment for a while I get used to it and the high i once felt dissipates.