PMM + mild bipolar = beastie! Help!!

I'm hoping someone is experiencing the same dilemma that I find myself in approximately mid cycle... Right around day 13... The irritability increases, fuse is short, feeling snappy and on edge. The next day... Omg!! I'm not fit to be with people! My irritability turns to bursts of rage, zero fuse and I lose it! If I feel like someone is disagreeing with me or is judgmental, I verbally go in for the kill with vicious venom, yikes!! I learned on the Internet that there is PMS, PMDD, and PMM (premenstrual magnification). Women with mood/personality disorders tend to experience a magnification of our symptoms right around the time we ovulate. I have cyclothymia and was diagnosed last summer. My medication has revolutionized my life, except for my Day 14 nightmare when I involuntarily unleash the Cracken!! I take lithium bicarbonate, wellbutrin, Xanax and lamictal. Even with the lamictal, I didn't go through this past day 14 unscathed. I tried to take Lutera, a birth control pill to stop the ovulating... Seemed like it was worth a try until I gained 20 pounds in one month. Anyone out there who can relate?? What has worked for you?? I'd love to escape to a hotel once a month, no kids... Just get massages and fruity umbrella drinks poolside! I'd really appreciate any advice you can give!!

omg i find something like this happens... least it's happening atm.

i slowly start getting more and more irritable as you can see (although it's exam time and i'm taking a LOT of caffeine atm), then the physical symptoms start and i can't deny it's cycle related anymore (except in public, obviously)... it's not always to the same extent every month but it's always around the two week mark, which i thought was too early but i guess not....

i start taking EVERYTHING badly, i'm so hypercritical (like, even more hypercritical than usual) but then i'm like OMG SORRY SORRY SORRY and then i'm like NO WAIT SCREW YOU, the paranoia/ideas of reference bloom back into life (guy smiling to himself as he walks by HE'S THINKING ABOUT ME etc), i even started having suicidal thoughts again today (which i would take as normal but i realised i haven't had any for a couple weeks at all....)

TWO WEEKS A MONTH. eurghhhhh.

Hi Bisous!
Thanks for your response! It helps to know you're not just being a royal @$!?#!! Baaaahaaaa!! Just like you, the intensity differs month to month, but the little things set me off and the big things become so cataclysmic I have a major breakdown like... time to call the guy in the white jackets!! One month last summer as my PMM was increasing to the point of being really scarry, I had a suicidal thought. It terrified me! "Just turn your car into that tree, no more pain!" I pulled over on the side of the road... prayed and wept! Will let you know if I find any info to help us out! I really appreciated hearing your story! Misery loves company... Or at least empathy for those flippin two days - two weeks! Thanks again!