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May 6, 2012 - 11:56 am
April 17th 2012 was when I made the stupidest decisions of my life and the best. I decided to end my life. I took what I thought was a bottle of 30 trazadone pills. It was not. It was a bottle of 15. I decided about 1/2 hour into the stupidity that I did not want to die. I started praying. I had ripped the phone out of the jack because I was raging at my ex boyfriend and he said he was going to have me arrested for harassment so no phone. I couldn't find my cell. I staggered around praying and praying, God please don't let me die. I want to see my children get married this fall. I want to see my grandchildren. This went on for about another 1/2 hour. I finally gave up and laid down. I could hear my heart beating loud and irregularly. I turned over on my side and went to pull the covers over me. As I did there was my cell phone. He answered my prayer.
I am alive today. I had thought about ending it before but never acted upon it before. It will never ever happen again. I know this might not sound like a success or victory story but for me it is both. Never give up hope. You can make it through anything....
I am alive today. I had thought about ending it before but never acted upon it before. It will never ever happen again. I know this might not sound like a success or victory story but for me it is both. Never give up hope. You can make it through anything....
I'm bipolar...and so am I!
April 17th 2012 was when I made the stupidest decisions of my life and the best. I decided to end my life. I took what I thought was a bottle of 30 trazadone pills. It was not. It was a bottle of 15. I decided about 1/2 hour into the stupidity that I did not want to die. I started praying. I had ripped the phone out of the jack because I was raging at my ex boyfriend and he said he was going to have me arrested for harassment so no phone. I couldn't find my cell. I staggered around praying and praying, God please don't let me die. I want to see my children get married this fall. I want to see my grandchildren. This went on for about another 1/2 hour. I finally gave up and laid down. I could hear my heart beating loud and irregularly. I turned over on my side and went to pull the covers over me. As I did there was my cell phone. He answered my prayer.
I am alive today. I had thought about ending it before but never acted upon it before. It will never ever happen again. I know this might not sound like a success or victory story but for me it is both. Never give up hope. You can make it through anything....
I am alive today. I had thought about ending it before but never acted upon it before. It will never ever happen again. I know this might not sound like a success or victory story but for me it is both. Never give up hope. You can make it through anything....
I'm bipolar...and so am I!
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