Your mood disorder can definitely efffect your out look and perspectives . It can have a strong negative impact on your motivation. People at work can even tell that I am not myself. I am much more reserved and silent. My personality kinda dissapears so people know when I am unstable. Sure I remain polite try and talk and be sociable but it is all kinda like an act. I just act the way I should be, but I feel not myself and awful. I walk around feeling empty and agitated and really nothing is wrong with my life. I have a good job that I like when I am well. My family life is fine. My financial sitiuation is OK. I have nothing to complain about , so I know it is a chemical imbalance and nothing more. I am at the mercy of my neurotransmitters. I just wait till my brain switches into another less painful phase of my illness.
Nobody really understands how this feels, unless they have the same illness. People keep thinking that it is something upsetting me like a life sitiuation but it is not. It is all chemical....... so at least we got athers here in the forum that understand. Hang in there u are not alone.