Ami is in the hospital

My wife, Ami, has been hospitalized for having suicide plans. I feel that the majority of this comes from the medication she was on acting against her. I encourage everyone to be proactive when speaking to your P-docs, be frank and dont try to hide anything. If you do they cant give a proper diagnosis and you will become a victim of poor medicine.

I hope you won't be offended if I pray for her Hydrok. It's so hard for us sometimes to put into words what is going on inside and which med might be affecting it. I am on six different meds and I have no idea which of three of them act on me. Sometimes you have to be a total rip to your docs to get them to understand so my heart goes out to both of you. I have bad mouthed one doc to another before and it has back fired on me big time! They might not even like each other but they close ranks if you say that any of them aren't doing their job. It's fear of malpractice I think. That probably doesn't apply to you guys but it does make me fearful to cross my doc.

I'm home now, I stopped tracking and I think that's when things started going downhill because I wasnt keeping an eye on my moods as well as I could have or should have.

Things just got crazy all of a sudden and my meds weren't working as well as they should have.

This is the first time I've posted here. I've noticed myself that if I don't track, than I don't have anything to refer to. Also, there are times when I do track that I try fooling myself into thinking everything's okay when it isn't. I hope that makes sense.