I am in a very stressful situation, and my anxiety is off the chart. Been trying everything: responding to self-talk, deep breathing, exercise, reading inspirational literature, prayer. The situation is this: I am living in a house jointly owned by my brother and my mother who has advanced dementia and is now in a nursing home. (I had been living with both my brother and my mother for a long time. My mother had had her own home, but my brother thought he was going to lose his house, due to a demotion and pay reduction, so to help him out, my mom sold her house, and then my brother sold his house and they jointly bought a house. I ended up moving in as well, so my mom, who was on social security, and I could share expenses. In more recent years, Mom's health started failing, so I became her caregiver. My brother ended up getting married and bought another house, in which he and his wife currently live. Now that my mom is in a nursing home, my brother wants to sell the house, and it is on the market.) Here is where my situation has gotten stressful. Just before Mom's health started failing, I got laid off (right during the start of the Recession). I have only been able to find a part time job so far, though I am doing everything under the sun to try to find full time employment or another part time job. My brother is harassing me to get out of the house, and I found out he has been badmouthing me right and left. I feel threatened and totally stressed out. Plus, I am still in the midst of a severe depression, and my self esteem is in the pits. I have been really down on myself, feeling like a real loser (why can't I get a job?) My brother has no empathy for me, and while I understand he wants to get rid of the house, I am worried about having a roof over my head (plus I have 2 kitties which are the joy of my life and don't want to lose them) and my brother's abusive behavior (at least it feels abusive to me--he just keeps at me, trying to wear me down) just worsens my depression, self-esteem, and anxiety. Guess I just wanted to kind of vent.
Medications for July 17, 2013 to August 16, 2013
| 08-16-2013 - Present: | Abilify, 1mg (1/2 pill). Daily |
06-19-2013 - Present: | Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning |
03-15-2013 - Present: | Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day |
07-07-2008 - Present: | Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day |
02-02-2006 - Present: | Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day |
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| 06-19-2013 - Present: | Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning |
03-15-2013 - Present: | Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day |
07-07-2008 - Present: | Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day |
02-02-2006 - Present: | Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day |
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| 07-12-2013 - 07-26-2013: | Claritin, 10mg. Once a day |
06-19-2013 - Present: | Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning |
03-15-2013 - Present: | Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day |
07-07-2008 - Present: | Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day |
02-02-2006 - Present: | Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day |
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Joined: 05-05-2013