Overwhelming anxiety

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diannew
August 16, 2013 - 8:09 pm
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diannew
Total Posts: 30
Joined: 05-05-2013
I am in a very stressful situation, and my anxiety is off the chart. Been trying everything: responding to self-talk, deep breathing, exercise, reading inspirational literature, prayer. The situation is this: I am living in a house jointly owned by my brother and my mother who has advanced dementia and is now in a nursing home. (I had been living with both my brother and my mother for a long time. My mother had had her own home, but my brother thought he was going to lose his house, due to a demotion and pay reduction, so to help him out, my mom sold her house, and then my brother sold his house and they jointly bought a house. I ended up moving in as well, so my mom, who was on social security, and I could share expenses. In more recent years, Mom's health started failing, so I became her caregiver. My brother ended up getting married and bought another house, in which he and his wife currently live. Now that my mom is in a nursing home, my brother wants to sell the house, and it is on the market.) Here is where my situation has gotten stressful. Just before Mom's health started failing, I got laid off (right during the start of the Recession). I have only been able to find a part time job so far, though I am doing everything under the sun to try to find full time employment or another part time job. My brother is harassing me to get out of the house, and I found out he has been badmouthing me right and left. I feel threatened and totally stressed out. Plus, I am still in the midst of a severe depression, and my self esteem is in the pits. I have been really down on myself, feeling like a real loser (why can't I get a job?) My brother has no empathy for me, and while I understand he wants to get rid of the house, I am worried about having a roof over my head (plus I have 2 kitties which are the joy of my life and don't want to lose them) and my brother's abusive behavior (at least it feels abusive to me--he just keeps at me, trying to wear me down) just worsens my depression, self-esteem, and anxiety. Guess I just wanted to kind of vent.



Medications for July 17, 2013 to August 16, 2013
08-16-2013 - Present:Abilify, 1mg (1/2 pill). Daily
06-19-2013 - Present:Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning
03-15-2013 - Present:Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day
07-07-2008 - Present:Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day
02-02-2006 - Present:Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day
06-19-2013 - Present:Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning
03-15-2013 - Present:Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day
07-07-2008 - Present:Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day
02-02-2006 - Present:Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day
07-12-2013 - 07-26-2013:Claritin, 10mg. Once a day
06-19-2013 - Present:Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning
03-15-2013 - Present:Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day
07-07-2008 - Present:Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day
02-02-2006 - Present:Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day

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diannew
diannew
August 16, 2013 - 8:09 pm
I am in a very stressful situation, and my anxiety is off the chart. Been trying everything: responding to self-talk, deep breathing, exercise, reading inspirational literature, prayer. The situation is this: I am living in a house jointly owned by my brother and my mother who has advanced dementia and is now in a nursing home. (I had been living with both my brother and my mother for a long time. My mother had had her own home, but my brother thought he was going to lose his house, due to a demotion and pay reduction, so to help him out, my mom sold her house, and then my brother sold his house and they jointly bought a house. I ended up moving in as well, so my mom, who was on social security, and I could share expenses. In more recent years, Mom's health started failing, so I became her caregiver. My brother ended up getting married and bought another house, in which he and his wife currently live. Now that my mom is in a nursing home, my brother wants to sell the house, and it is on the market.) Here is where my situation has gotten stressful. Just before Mom's health started failing, I got laid off (right during the start of the Recession). I have only been able to find a part time job so far, though I am doing everything under the sun to try to find full time employment or another part time job. My brother is harassing me to get out of the house, and I found out he has been badmouthing me right and left. I feel threatened and totally stressed out. Plus, I am still in the midst of a severe depression, and my self esteem is in the pits. I have been really down on myself, feeling like a real loser (why can't I get a job?) My brother has no empathy for me, and while I understand he wants to get rid of the house, I am worried about having a roof over my head (plus I have 2 kitties which are the joy of my life and don't want to lose them) and my brother's abusive behavior (at least it feels abusive to me--he just keeps at me, trying to wear me down) just worsens my depression, self-esteem, and anxiety. Guess I just wanted to kind of vent.



Medications for July 17, 2013 to August 16, 2013
08-16-2013 - Present:Abilify, 1mg (1/2 pill). Daily
06-19-2013 - Present:Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning
03-15-2013 - Present:Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day
07-07-2008 - Present:Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day
02-02-2006 - Present:Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day
06-19-2013 - Present:Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning
03-15-2013 - Present:Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day
07-07-2008 - Present:Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day
02-02-2006 - Present:Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day
07-12-2013 - 07-26-2013:Claritin, 10mg. Once a day
06-19-2013 - Present:Lexapro, 20mg. Once every morning
03-15-2013 - Present:Lisinopril, 5mg. Once a day
07-07-2008 - Present:Omeprozel, 20.6. Once a day
02-02-2006 - Present:Atenalol, 50mg. Once a day

Willingness
September 5, 2013 - 12:13 am
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Willingness
Total Posts: 6
Joined: 08-28-2012
First off know that you are not alone.
I remember being "in your shoes" Everyone told me it will get better and I did not believe them. I kept on keeping on cause the alternative: death I knew was not what God wanted for me. I kept talking to God and the wisest people I had in my life like my therapist and kept on doing things that were good for me and OPPOSITE to what my emotions wanted to do (crawl up and do nothin and get loved) Eventually I got the right medication combo join and bit by bit I got to see how beautiful the world was again. I hate to admit it, but I think 99 percent of fixing a mental illness is in the right medication....
Any way enough bable. YOU hang in there so you can be a whitness to others how to stay resistant.
Im rootin for you. )Oh yeah sweet talk to yourself- Louise Hayes type- and no more hatin on yourself.
Sara


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Willingness
Willingness
September 5, 2013 - 12:13 am
First off know that you are not alone.
I remember being "in your shoes" Everyone told me it will get better and I did not believe them. I kept on keeping on cause the alternative: death I knew was not what God wanted for me. I kept talking to God and the wisest people I had in my life like my therapist and kept on doing things that were good for me and OPPOSITE to what my emotions wanted to do (crawl up and do nothin and get loved) Eventually I got the right medication combo join and bit by bit I got to see how beautiful the world was again. I hate to admit it, but I think 99 percent of fixing a mental illness is in the right medication....
Any way enough bable. YOU hang in there so you can be a whitness to others how to stay resistant.
Im rootin for you. )Oh yeah sweet talk to yourself- Louise Hayes type- and no more hatin on yourself.
Sara


diannew
September 5, 2013 - 1:34 am
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diannew
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Sara, thank you so much for your response. I agree wholeheartedly what you said about the medication. Finally got the right dosage/medication combo and feel sooo much better. Anxiety is better, mood is more normal--even though my situation has not changed--in fact, my situation has actually gotten worse since I wrote the above. But my mood is more stable and I am able to deal with the situation much more rationally.


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diannew
September 5, 2013 - 1:34 am
Sara, thank you so much for your response. I agree wholeheartedly what you said about the medication. Finally got the right dosage/medication combo and feel sooo much better. Anxiety is better, mood is more normal--even though my situation has not changed--in fact, my situation has actually gotten worse since I wrote the above. But my mood is more stable and I am able to deal with the situation much more rationally.


Lcountrysun
October 16, 2013 - 6:36 pm
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Yes, you're right..this is a stressful situation and you know the old saying about "I'd really worry about myself if I wasn't worried?" Well, now is the time to take constructive action. You mention that you were a caregiver for your Mom??? Hey, individuals who are willing to be caregivers are worth their weight in gold! You have a very, very salable skill. Also, there are many, many live-in caregiver situations that are positive, positive. Hang in there and be realistic and proactive.


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Lcountrysun
October 16, 2013 - 6:36 pm
Yes, you're right..this is a stressful situation and you know the old saying about "I'd really worry about myself if I wasn't worried?" Well, now is the time to take constructive action. You mention that you were a caregiver for your Mom??? Hey, individuals who are willing to be caregivers are worth their weight in gold! You have a very, very salable skill. Also, there are many, many live-in caregiver situations that are positive, positive. Hang in there and be realistic and proactive.


shagydeep
October 25, 2013 - 12:52 am
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Joined: 10-25-2013
Hello,
Yes it happens sometimes with also but it is not permanent. If any situation comes like i have to go in front of mob/people then I feel very tense and shiver lot but after sometime everything goes well...


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shagydeep
October 25, 2013 - 12:52 am
Hello,
Yes it happens sometimes with also but it is not permanent. If any situation comes like i have to go in front of mob/people then I feel very tense and shiver lot but after sometime everything goes well...


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