dissociation?

I saw "my" name the other night. I had typed it. It was wrong, it wasnt me. My name is Kairi! whats this name here for? I didnt understand. I waxed lyrical to a support person. I dont really understand. I feel so unreal and far away. At times, Glaciel peeks at me through her hands, saying "is it safe to come out?" but she see's its me, and fears what this means for her, so she stays hidden. How can i stop dissociating long enough to implement techniques to be the person i was intended to be before we got sidetracked and i took over in a state of anxiety? Its not DID, because we are aware of eachother and share basically the same personality. But its like living in our imagination all the time and its exhausting. Or is this sinister? will i become a psychotic heavily medicated drooling mess?
It feels so hopeless. I hate anxiety.

Hi Glaciel,

I've just recently had some dissociation. I don't understand anything about it and find it very disturbing. Somehow, we got off track on the Forum: Does anyone else feel this way. Now looking back I wish hadn't posted it for the world to see. It is what it is. Anyway, feel free to read what I posted.

Hi, to my knowledge this is a pretty rare problem, which is terrible, because I suffer from it quite badly; Especially when married with panic and confusion, dissociation can be unbearable, feelings that encompass these criteria have enabled me to understand what drives people to take their own lives, and I know exactly how you feel. Talking to councillors and other workers, they just couldn't understand and it seemed like they didn't care, and this overthinking stuff IS SO FAMILIAR TO ME. I'm constantly questioning weather I will escape the clutches of my heinous imagination, perpetually ruminating about what of times seems an inevitable transition into a psychotic person and the impact that will have on me and the people closest to me, it just seems like it hurts to live with such pain, especially when there are no medications effective for bringing one out of their own head and into the 'real world'.

I have experienced dissociation due to anxiety. Right before I was hospitalized in 2010 I became agoraphobic, I only went out to get groceries or go to work, and only then bc I had to. I found I would feel like I was outside myself when I was driving. It was me but it wasn't me that was driving. I start to do it when I get overwhelmed especially when it comes to going to the grocery store or Walmart. It gets too loud too bright and the people are too close. I have to tell myself not to let go and try to stay grounded in the moment.