I've posted here am couple years back. I'm bipolar but I also have horrendous anxiety. I am on this drug called Gabapentin for social anxiety. It gets me 80% better to where I have friends and a social life. I still have problems leaving the house, however. I am afraid of new situations and new places. Even places I have been going for years with people I have been around for years. I have no idea why. Usually it is involving sports so I am wondering if it is not social anxiety I have but performance anxiety, which gets so bad I don't go most of the time.
Like today, I am going to a defense against weapons class at my Krav Maga studio. I'm a member there but I'm so nervous to go. I'm afraid of embarrassing myself in front of the more experienced members. My Dr prescribed me 10 pills of Ativan at the lowest dose but I need something to combat this daily. I see him in 3 weeks so I'm going to bring up raising my Effexor which really has done a lot for me anxiety-wise.
I am find with people one on one but it seems like when there is going to be a group of people doing something, I get nervous. I also do rock climbing indoor and outdoor. I've been climbing since I was 15, but I'm totally embarrassed whenever I climb in front of people even if they are my friends. I get anxiety about visiting my indoor gym to the point where I barely use my membership anymore.
Next week I see my therapist I'm going to start working with him on a weekly basis. I don't know if this is something therapy can cure or if it needs to come in the form of medication. Thoughts?