quiz, curiosity--hope you will answer

Okay, so I'm new to BPD and have some questions.

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else?

What kind of music do you listen to mainly?

Do you like math, word problems, logic?

Are you artistic?

Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear agining?

Do you feel more connected to animals than people?

Are you a quick learner?

Do you excel at your job?

Do you get bored easily?

Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic?

Gosh, I feel like there were more questions. I'm sure I will think of them. These are just random things about me and I wonder if it's me or BPD.

OH...has anyone had a brain scan...like fMRI or PET?

Thanks:)

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else?

*Yes, I dislike lots of noise, or too many different noises, like a dog barking or children playing and the phone ringing at the same time.

What kind of music do you listen to mainly?
*Mainly stuff from my youth, 70's, 80's, I like it hard and loud.

Do you like math, word problems, logic?
*I dislike math, but love word puzzles, like finding as many words out of a 9 letter word as possible.

Are you artistic?
*Sadly no, but I'd love to be able to paint or draw, I do write poetry though.

Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear agining?
*Oh gosh yes, this is so me!!! I hate aging, I'm 50 and still feel like I'm 16.

Do you have sex aversion or any other sex problems?
*Nope, no problem there.

Do you feel more connected to animals than people?
Yes, always have.

Are you a quick learner?
*Depends if I'm interested in the subject or not, but definitely not with math or science.

Do you excel at your job?
*I don't work at the moment, but I would have said I was rather lazy in my job.

Do you get bored easily?
*Yes, and no. I'm stuck at home due to agoraphobia, but I manage to fill in my time rather well.

Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic?
*Yes, very much so, I'd love to turn back the clock.

OH...has anyone had a brain scan...like fMRI or PET?
*I've had a brain scan a couple of years ago, didn't show anything, but they were looking for a potential bleed.


*I should say I've only been diagnosed with BP2 a few months ago, but a lot of people have mentioned I have BPD traits, so when I find a new psychiatrist, I will be getting them to test for that as well.

Thanks so much for responding! I wish more people would. It will be interesting to see if there are common things like this. I'm sure some have been documented, by I haven't seen much written on the strange little things.

I am 42 and like my music hard and loud too! I blast hard rock in my car all day and have to turn it down when I come to a stop so I don't look like a weirdo:) Old stuff, new stuff, I love it all! I'm glad to hear about the aging and nostalgia...not for your sake of course;) But glad to know I'm not alone. It really causes a lot of distress for me....A LOT!!! Makes me panic and traumatizes me in a way. Very scary.

Also glad I'm not alone with the sounds. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy. Little noises, like clocks ticking, etc. will drive me nuts, or like you said, too many things at once. High pitched noises are also really hard for me.

Thanks so much for sharing. Do you have any other things you're curious about?

Good questions......

1, Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else?

Yes! Do not like too many sounds all at once, it really stresses me out and I cannot think. Do not like others touching me except my husband and lots of hugs from my children.

2, What kind of music do you listen to mainly?

I like a wide range of music but when I want to blank everything else out, I like it loud.

3, Do you like math, word problems, logic?

Always loved math at school and still like working with figures. Do not like word puzzles at all.

4, Are you artistic?

No! My art teacher told me once that I did not have an imagination! I find anything to do with art very stressful but saying that I love photography and poetry.

5, Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear aging?

I definitely feel like a child on the inside. I wonder if I will ever grow up and be mature after all i now have a family of my own to look after. I do fear ageing.

6, Do you have sex aversion or any other sex problems?

Not at the moment, especially with the reduction in my anti-depressants!

7, Do you feel more connected to animals than people?

Yes.

8, Are you a quick learner?

Yes, I think I am. Had to be as I have two degrees, then had to do another university course as part of my old job etc...

9, Do you excel at your job?

I am not working at the moment but I was pretty good at my job until we got a new boss and he got annoyed when i had to leave work if one of my kids was ill etc. I feel he destroyed my self esteem and I tried to take out a grievance against him for bullying.....oops sorry said too much there.....

10, Do you get bored easily?

As my anti-depressants are being reduced then I am starting to feel bored. I think this is a good thing as I hope it will push me to do more.

11, Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic?

Oh yes!

Thanks so much! I hope everyone responsds:) Looks like some themes are emerging!

quiz, curiosity--hope you will answer

      Okay, so I'm new to BPD and have some questions.

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else? I don't like hugging people, or touching them. Only my husband. I am pretty sensitive to sound.

What kind of music do you listen to mainly? Soul, jazz

Do you like math, word problems, logic? Yes, though now that I am taking medication for bipolar, I get confused too easily and don't enjoy it as much.

Are you artistic? Very

Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear aging? I really fear aging, and though I'm 50, I feel more like a teen at times.

Do you have sex aversion or any other sex problems? No

Do you feel more connected to animals than people? No

Are you a quick learner? Used to be, not anymore.

Do you excel at your job? No, I lack confidence and people seem to know.

Do you get bored easily? Yes

Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic? Yes, but trying to change this.

Gosh, I feel like there were more questions. I'm sure I will think of them. These are just random things about me and I wonder if it's me or BPD.

OH...has anyone had a brain scan...like fMRI or PET. No

Thanks:)

I'm new to the forums, I found this mood tracker thing and thought it might help my doctors come to some conclusions with my mood disorders and other mental illnesses. I'm not diagnosed with BPD, because I'm still young (only 17) and they want to follow my moods a lot more. I am diagnosed with Anxiety disorder NOS (not otherwise specified), panic and anxiety disorder, major depression, mood disorder NOS (possible bipolar/bipolar type 2 and BPD), and EDNOS (an eating disorder).

I stumbled upon these questions and all of your answers are similar to mine.

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else?
*Extremely. High pitched noises, phones ringing (my phone is always on vibrate), any sort of repetitive noise causes my brain to focus on it and I won't be able to focus on anything else (it's really bad for school). I also can't stand when people touch me (though I'm not sure if it's because of my self-harm). If someone touches my arm or my back or hugs me all I want to do is to pull away from them and not have them touching me.

What kind of music do you listen to mainly?
*A variety of music. I don't really have a specific type but I love soft rock, indie, soul, etc. What I choose to listen to varies GREATLY with my mood.

Do you like math, word problems, logic?
*I love them. But I often get stressed out with them and give up on things really easily.

Are you artistic?
*I can't draw for my life. However, I love playing music, singing, doing photography and writing poetry and short stories.

Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear agining?
*Well, I am still a kid in all of your terms, but I feel like I should be 10 still. I fear aging greatly and my doctors worry about me with my past history with suicide and the mindset that I have that I don't want to live to be old.

Do you feel more connected to animals than people?
*I'm DEFINITELY more connected to animals than to people. I wanted to be a veterinarian until I was 14 and now I have decided to go into psychiatric nursing and help teenagers instead.

Are you a quick learner?
*I'm a quick learner if I care about what I'm learning about. If I don't care about it and don't have any motivation to learn it, it can take me years to learn something.

Do you excel at your job?
*Depending on my moods. If my mood is manic or hypomanic, I'll get things done quickly and I'll often take on things that I can't get done unless I'm in that state and then they won't end up getting done. I also take on way to many things. When my moods are depressive, NOTHING gets done. I'll get so far behind in my schoolwork that they'll start keeping me after school hours to finish my work and I can build up months of homework.

Do you get bored easily?
*I get bored super easily, though my rapid mood changes play a part in that. I can be amused by something or preoccupied with it and then my mood can change so fast to a state of depression and I'll be bored with it. OR if I'm in a manic/hypomanic state, I might just get bored of it quickly because my mind is racing so much.

Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic?
*All of the time.

Hey weareallmad!

Just remember, you don't need a diagnosis to treat symptoms. Have you looked at this book?

Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook: Practical DBT Exercises for Learning Mindfulness, Interpersonal Effectiveness, Emotion Regulation, & Distress Tolerance

It's a SUPER easy workbook to give you little skills for daily things that come up. It's about $13 on amazon. It actually works for all of the diagnoses you mentioned. I really hope you will try it:)

You're lucky that you're figuring all of this out now. Hang in there and be kind to yourself, kay?

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else?

I overreact to stress. I don't have hypersensitivity to sense though. I have generalized anxiety that probably stems from the BPD. My father was a tyrant so I think I expect the worst and most distressing outcome.

What kind of music do you listen to mainly?
Soft rock, Contemporary Christian, 60's, 70's, 80's, some 90's, a lot of Solid Gold Classics, some Classical, almost no (and I mean none) of the Country Western genre

Do you like math, word problems, logic?
Not at all

Are you artistic?
No but I like to write.

Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear agining?
Yes. Most of the time I feel between about 10 - 16

Do you have sex aversion or any other sex problems?
I'm more highly sexed than most and yet because of this I am ashamed and put off a prudish attitude when others make crude jokes or references. This is exacerbated by the fact that I haven't been married in 17 years and have only had one intimate relationship since then. It was a very bad relationship of about two years and ended October of last year. Very messed up right now over it.

Do you feel more connected to animals than people?
No way. I'm a people person. I want to figure out what makes people tick like a mechanic wants to figure out what makes a motor run. I like cats and dogs and other little creatures but I don't like to clean up after them. I do like the occasional nature program but that's about it.

Are you a quick learner?
I used to be but my mind would often wander. I do have a high IQ but the attention problem has gotten steadily worse in the last 10 years. I am 52 next month. I think it is the meds and I think I take after my grandmothers who had dementia though I am showing signs earlier. My dad is senile early and not in a nice way at all.

Do you excel at your job?
I am now on disability (for the mental illness and various physical problems but when I was working there were certain things I excelled at. My supervisor said other than missing work when there my production and quality was good. My attitude was not always though especially towards management. That is probably because of my personality though and I don't think it is the BPD. I have a strong sense of justice especially to the working masses. I never wanted to be in management even when offered the position and was (gasp!) a union steward in one job. So of course my manager threw in that I had a bad attitude to policies, especially by management in every evaluation.
Do you get bored easily?
*Yes, and no. I'm stuck at home due to agoraphobia, but I manage to fill in my time rather well.

Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic?
Yes, very histrionic.

OH...has anyone had a brain scan...like fMRI or PET?
I wish I could. I've seen brain scans of Bipolars, depresses and would love to see BPD's. I think I have read that BPD's are also different. I was just hospitalized and in one group they said that very a very recent study is finding that there may be actual "grooves" made in our brain pathways from negative thinking. When we continue these thoughts over and over we have a harder and harder time not framing positive thoughts. Scary.

I have accepted my illness but I refuse to see it as an incurable "disorder" or use it as an excuse even though my attorney said I "won" my disability case. Yes, I am now "disabled" but my illnesses can be managed. They are probably not, in my life time, able to be prevented, buy I am hopeful that they will be in my grandchildren's. This is what I must strive for and encourage my daughters to be vigilant and willing to take part in studies if they are asked to. My oldest daughter shows the most signs of bipolar in my opinion and I am closest to her. I am going to suggest she see if she would qualify for studies. Thanks for this forum topic. You have inspired me to this idea. Hope it helped you too.

Thanks! I'll definitely take a look for that book and give it a try. The hospital was looking at putting me into DBT but the program is full right now as they had some nurses go on mat. leave and stuff. I'm going into an inpatient program for the eating disorder and they incorporate a lot of DBT qualities into the program and every staff member of the program has had basic training in DBT thought processing.
Again, thanks for the book recommendation!

Hi wearallmad,

I was part of a DBT group within an eating disorders clinic for two years. I attened the outpatient group once a week and I found it very helpful. I am sure you will find it helpful too.

Take care

I'm sure it'll be helpful. I have been in outpatient for the past two months and they've tried teaching me some dbt exercises. Now with inpatient therell be a lot more time to work on them.

WOW! Haven't been officially diagnosed yet, but I certainally identify with a lot of this:

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else? Hypersensitive to loud noise, don't like being touched or hugged, since an early age

What kind of music do you listen to mainly? Heavy metal, indie or alternative stuff

Do you like math, word problems, logic? Nope absolutely rubbish at maths!!

Are you artistic? Yep, love creative writing

Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear agining? Fear ageing, yes

Do you feel more connected to animals than people? Definately prefer animals to people

Are you a quick learner? Yes

Do you excel at your job? Don't work at the moment

Do you get bored easily? Yes, am always looking for new projects, ideas

Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic? All the time

OH...has anyone had a brain scan...like fMRI or PET? Waiting for a referral for an EEG exam

Thanks for sharing :)

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else?

I don't like loud noises or too many noises at once. I can get overwhemed and shut down.

What kind of music do you listen to mainly?

I usually only listen to music on my way to work. It is a classic station. I keep the volume fairly low.

Do you like math, word problems, logic?

I like things where I need to think and figure things out. It keeps my mind active and on the present instead of worrying.

Are you artistic?

I like to draw, but am not that talented. I like to write.

Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear agining?

I don't fear aging but I do feel childish. I can't help how I behave but I am cognizant that it is not the behavior an adult should display.

Do you feel more connected to animals than people?

I don't feel connected to people that much at all.

Are you a quick learner?

Usually, yes.

Do you excel at your job?

I used to. Now I feel pointed out because I have had a rough year. I am a perfectionist and it bothers me that people may think less of me.

Do you get bored easily?

Yes.

Do you feel stuck in the past? Nostalgic?

No. I am stuck in the potential future where everything goes wrong. I spend much of my time worrying about how things are going to turn out.

I am not intersted in sex and this has nothing to do with medication. I have had my hormone levels tested and everything is normal.

OH...has anyone had a brain scan...like fMRI or PET?

I had an MRI for a concussion years ago. I freaked out a little as I didn't know I was claustrophobic. The doctor had to send in a prescription to help settle me down.

Do you have hypersensitivity to sounds? touch? Anything else?

I do not like loud noises unless it is music and I am in the mood for it. I am easily annoyed by people who haveannoying habits....talking to themselves, the loud constant sigh, smacking gum ect.

What kind if music do you listen to mainly?

I like different music depending on my mood....I like the 80's , rock, music I can sing to and some country.

Do you like math, word problems, logic?

No on the math but I do enjoy looking for trends and or research...I am in the medical field (coder/auditor)

Are you artistic?

No...can not draw or write...but I can sing


Do you feel like a kid trapped in an adult/aging body? Do you fear aging?

Sometimes I feel like my reactions are childish...and I don't fear aging but I am noticing big changes and I don't like it...almost 40 now.

Do you have sex aversion or any other sex problems?

Yes no desire...mostly because of current other health issues and had low drive since I had son 10 years ago. Prob hormonal and depression.

Do you feel more connected to animals than people?

Sometimes I do but I tend to connect to people and or attract people that also have mental illness or do but don't know they do.

Are you a quick learner?

Yes and no depends on what it is and if I have taken my add meds :-)

Do you excel at your job?

I think so but I have been doing this for 16 years and since I started add meds 2 years ago I am a lot better than before.

Do you get bored easily? YES!!

Do you feel stuck in the past?

Sometimes