I see your point about the pets. I have always had some family, dysfunctional, but still family. All I have left now is my husband. No kids. Though I am married, I am still lonely. (Either that or chronically depressed or something. My PTSD comes out in all different ways. ) So I guess for me, the dog is a great filler.
As far as the new lead goes, I would give it a try. Nothing ventured, nothing gained! If you make contact, perhaps just let her know that you understand if your birth mother feels too much pain to see you, but you would love the opportunity to meet your half-sister(s) if that is something they feel comfortable with. Let them know that you have no other family. Be persistent, but not pushy. If they still don't want contact, then I am thinking it is their loss. A huge one. You seem like such a nice person.
How old do you think the youngest daughter is? Do they live in the same area? If they searched for you on line, would they find anything that would make them think twice about meeting you? There is so much on line--what if they searched for you and got someone else with the same name and not a nice background? That would be really unfair, but I have seen that happen with a friend. It cost him a lot of money.
Perhaps your counselor will have some ideas too--I think you mentioned having one?
Take care Ardent.
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