Hi Daphnemoon,
I am so sorry for the emptional rollercoaster you've been on for seven years? And mostly on the down side? You can't continue like this and I know you don't have to!! Are you seeing a general practioner or a psychiatrist? Maybe the depakote isn't enough. I'm nooooo doctor, but for my cyclothymia I'm on four medications and the combination of them, working in tandem, really make a difference!! The hypomania isn't as extreme... Though I still feel and know when I'm in that state, likewise with my times of depression... Just not as extreme plus a shorter duration. If you aren't seeing a pdoc, you may be taking a medication that isn't best for your condition. I first saw a general prac, he prescribed Prozac and sent me on way. That would have kept me in a perpetual hypomanic state without a mood stabilizer to balance it out. If self harm has been a struggle for you, then that may be another disorder altogether which another med might be more effectiven for those impulses... Or your depression is so severe that the hopelessness leads to self harm? I have no idea but it sounds like getting a second opinion might be in your best interest. I also see a psychologist - a talk therapist who can help you heal, as well. Mine has given me strategies and helped me learn about my triggers and how to avoid them. Do whatever you need to do to be well, Daphnemoon. : )
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