JD! Hi,
most of the friends and family I have out in your area there have been posting on FB & Instagram (those are the only two social media apps I have anyway) how 'butt ass' cold it is out there ~ especially w/the windchill factor like you were saying. Is it really below zero degrees Fahrenheit? Damn. The funny thing about your post and what got me to respond right away even though I'm super busy was you saying your dog "...can learn to use the toilet for a day" Haha! Cracked me up bc you are the 3rd or 4th person I've heard that from over there today. So I'm certain it must freezing out your way. It's been wet and rainy here on the Wasatch Front. Seems to me it should either rain OR snow instead of one storm bringing heavy snow for a day or two then a day later it will rain all day or two. It's only low 50's and high 40's BUT by Sunday we're supposed to be in the 20's as well.
I'm an emotional self abuser too. No doubt. I realized a long time ago that if a person were to talk to me the way I talk to myself in my head sometimes I probably would consider shooting, stabbing or maiming them BUT I don't think I could live w/myself SO at the very least we would no longer be or ever become friends as I'd definitely go out of my way to avoid that person! So the question is; why do I let myself talk to me that way? Or without the severe hack on the English language "How can I justify treating myself in such a harmful way that I would have zero tolerance w/it coming from another?"
My vacay was so fricken relaxing! I felt a bit guilty and depressed bc I usually go out and do a lot of things when I get back to the Bay Area; try to visit as many people as I can & all that BUT it rained almost everyday except for two out of the thirteen! People were telling me it rained more while I was there on vacay than it did all last Winter. They got drenched out there the past couple days w/some much needed rain, tg. The drought in California was about as bad as I remember the worst one we had there in the 70's I think. The old rule from that time was in effect at my mom's house: "If it's yellow it's mellow. If it's brown it goes down!" Lol, I believe the saying was developed so us kids would have an easier time remembering. When I got back to Utah on Dec 1st I was so very grateful that I mostly lounged around, reading books, relaxing, resting, sleeping and talking w/my Mom & Stepmom. I was so burned out by the time my vacation started. This year was challenging and very tough on me mentally, emotionally and then physically when those two are out of whack long enough; I can't sleep, my good eating habits start slipping and I don't get enough or the right kind of exercise and relaxation.
The highest and fastest 'burnout' rates, for workers in the Mental Health and Substance Abuse field are under my job description: Psych Tech, Frontline Staff, Peer Counselor, etc. Though responsibilities under the job title can vary greatly between facilities across the country or even across the street from each other. Also, the highest relapse rates for those of us who are in recovery as well. Licensed Substance Abuse Counselors w/out Master's Degrees are a very close second. They can last up to six years. The workforce statistics indicate I'm not supposed to last more than two to three. In fact, I'm the only one left at the position from when I started. My coworkers either left for better pay or moved to another job position within the company. I'm going on my sixth year working there now + almost a year as a counselor intern working for free... I feel like I have so much to say and I'm blabbing away here. Well, let me switch to good and better news.
At our annual Christmas Party employee awards and other honors are announced and given out. We had it the first week of December this year for some reason. Anyway, my coworkers voted me "Employee of the Year". I about crapped myself (not really) BUT I was very surprised, seeing as how I got 'written up' the day before I left for vacation haha. I felt very honored and got a little choked up and would probably have cried like I won Mrs America if I wasn't so nervous from suddenly and unexpectedly having to go up to the stage to receive the plaque (award) and wing an acceptance speech of some sort in front all the employees from both our facilities and their husbands, wives, significant others and children! We have almost if not 200 employees AND everyone in this part of Utah past the age of 22 is married and starting to have children if they don't already. I doubt I'll get a raise despite the award - not for a few months or more. So you're right. I need to get that damn national credential so I can get certified then licensed after two years bc I could go somewhere else w/it & make more money. I could've already been licensed like twice over already by now. I waited so long to take the test and now that I passed the test I've been lagging getting everything together to complete the process.
I still need to deal with getting my car registered, getting a new prescription for glasses and finding a roommate. My mother said she would help me with the licensing fees and costs for sealed college transcripts, yet another criminal background check, copy of any police citations/tickets w/in the past 10 yrs along with any legal records from courts (misdemeanors/but I think they screwed up and changed it so applicants can no longer have felonies w/in the past 10yrs which is so stupid especially if they are felonies related to drug abuse and non-violent - I won't even get started on that subject), CPR Certification, TB test result signed by a MD and has to be w/in the past year OR maybe it's two PLUS more stuff. Fricken overwhelming. Come to think of it, the process reminds me of when I was in the Masters in Ed program getting ready to apply for my 'clear credential' I think it was called to be licensed as a K-12 (Multiple Subjects) teacher in California. They didn't care about any of your damn college transcripts as long as you got your Masters and no college would give it w/out the completion of 'in-class room' teaching segments A, B, C & D. Oh, you also had to pass the MSAT or the SSAT - Single Subjects for those wanting to teach High School level students only.
Omg I'm such a blabbermouth! Last thought for now - it was sad for me to see how much the culture of the area I grew up in has changed when I visited. The backbone of that culture had always been a mix of people who were well educated, culturally and ethnically diverse (w/respect for that diversity), aware of current social and political issues at the local, statewide and national levels, and willing to fight to protect civil rights such as free speech and the right to have an organized protest like a march or demonstration = Geez, sounds like I'm describing political activists! Some of these people had means or came from money though most didn't. The ones who did cared more about the well being of the community than making more money at the expense of the community bc what inevitably happens (I believe) is it lowers the quality of living for more and more people while fewer and fewer people begin to accumulate the majority. My point is or what I saw was more homeless, or houseless they say there, people and families than ever. Anything that isn't fricken bolted to something is getting stolen. My favorite hang out spot Cole Coffee where I used to chill right after work I went to a few times and I only ran to a couple of acquaintances. The little yuppy liberal people that can afford an apartment in that area are rude as hell now! It was very sad as was the realization I could never afford to move back.
My mother's house is on one of the two corners in a T shaped intersection. She bought her house in like 1970 for like 60 or 70 grand. The house on the opposite corner was put up for sale with a listing price of 2.8 mil THEN she told me it sold for 3.4 or 3.6 million - wtf?! Where in the hell do folks get that kind of money where they can pay a half million over the asking price. Give me that 500 grand here and I doubt I'd have work ever again. She said the buyer was a guy who started an internet company called Lift? I've never heard of it
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