Hello, brand new user here. I've been using a different forum site that encompasses mental health in general for awhile, and heard something there about online mood trackers. So I did a search, and found this place.
My official record is actually Bipolar 1 with Asperger Syndrome and ADHD. I don't have a professional diagnosis of BPD, but identify strongly with its characteristics and suspect I have it. As I understand (correct me if I make a false or innacurate statement), it's not always inherited, but often develops somewhat later on in life in the childhood years through adolescence. I'm 19 years old, 20 in about 2 months, so I believe I've developed it within just the past few years.
So, about cycling. I find that my moods are never consistent throughout the day. For one, I get the BPD-related anger pretty much daily, sometimes as an excessive response to little things, but more often spontaneously. I do my best to keep it under control, and usually manage to do so without creating a scene. Now, as for Bipolar related mood swings, I'm confused. I go through these times, typically lasting a couple of weeks or so, where I slip into serious depression late in the day, and have had suicidal thoughts a lot. It may also be worth mentioning that I'm highly convinced I have Delayed Sleep Phase Syndrome. I cannot fall asleep quickly no matter what, I've been relying on 5 mg tablets of Melatonin every night to be able to fall asleep in 1 - 2 hours as opposed to around 4, or sometimes even surpassing 5 hours without it.
During these states of nighttime depression though, I don't feel a whole lot different through the day time. Probably a bit more on the depressive side, but not heavily. I also experience episodes that I believe to be hypomania at unpredictable times, but only lasting a number of hours. I can't readily distinguish between hypomania and full-blown mania, but I've experienced very infrequent and also short-lived periods that seem to be mania, in which I speak quickly and hastily and can't sit still.
I'm just looking for some clues in the puzzle; if anyone has input to offer, please do.
Formerly medicated and will not return.
Joined: 11-22-2016