Artista,
Thank you for this very helpful explanation.
This explanation helps understand how and why it is dangerous to have another depression or Mania episode.
This explanation shows us why not taking our medication is a bad option, even if weight gain or sluggishness tempt us to stop medicating ourselves.
Protecting the brain, I agree, is a good idea. That is why I wear a helmet when I ride my motorcycle.
Protecting the brain from damaging itself is an infinitely more complex challenge. But it is a challenge that we must face, unless we want to live with the consequences of brain damage.
When I was a child, I knew that something was wrong with me, with my thinking and my feelings and even evidently my behavior.
I begged my mother to take me to a psychiatrist for help, but she had a lot of practical reasons why getting help for me was Impractical. And so I never was treated by a psychiatrist regularly until I was 23 years old.
Even then, I resisted and refused taking medication even as I cycled in and out of mixed episodes for another 6 years. So, in some of my adult life, I have to take responsibility for subjecting my brain to unnecessary accidents.
I knew that I went through periodic bouts of insanity that caused deep anguish and during which I was a danger to myself and others, but I thought that medication would only hurt me, not help me.
I was still living in the paradigm that my mother gave me, to avoid Psychiatry like the plague.
The illness did progress until I had no alternative but to seek medication. When I did seek medication, it gave me a lot of relief.
Just for one example, I lost my driver's license for a Time because I had been driving 100 miles an hour on the highway. Since I did not pay the ticket, I lost my driver's license and a warrant was issued for my arrest. So I simply avoided that state, that jurisdiction, until I had resolved the problem.
Once I began taking Trazodone, I found that I was magically able to drive at the speed limit. Thoughts in my head that caused pain no longer translated automatically into pushing down the Gas Pedal. That is just one example of how medication has helped me.
Unfortunately, trazodone is not available in the Dominican Republic and so I still engage in dangerous Behavior sometimes. But I have other medications that help keep this under control. They are not as effective as Trazodone, but they do a good job, except in acute episodes.
I'd rather have a frontal lobotomy than a bottle in front of me.
Joined: 06-12-2011