I rarely visit this site. But here goes.
Yes I live a happy well adjusted life. But I have my meds dialed in pretty well. I have a wonderful psychiatrist!
I’ve certainly had my mood swings. Especially when in perimenopause. I became psychotic thinking a demon was sitting on my shoulder. It would scream in my right ear, telling me to commit homicide/suicide. This was before I was medicated. I’ve not been like that since meds. I’ve only hallucinated I think because of extreme sleep deprivation. I do get mania and depression but I’ve been in remission since I’ve been on Vraylar. That’s been about nine months. A long streak for me!!!!
Everyone is unique. I think after five years of therapy I have a handle on how to cope with bipolar I and complex PTSD. I also have ADD. I do the best I can. I also have a loving supportive husband who has been through hell and back with me, but has always stuck by my side. This helps immensely. He keeps an eye on my moods and lets me know if things are off as I often don’t realize it. Then I call my doc or take some extra Seroquel on top of my Vraylar to quiet things down, as he said I could do. I always am med compliant! And I don’t drink or do drugs as it defeats the purpose of my meds. I am on 14 prescription meds, 6 of which are for psych, the most of the rest for side effect control.
Sleep is a huge problem for me. I can fall asleep easily, but cannot stay asleep. So I rely on a mix of Klonopin and Seroquel.
I did retire from being a patent attorney at
age 53 because of stress. I can’t deal
with a lot of stress, BUT I also know
complex PTSD contributes to that. So
know I’m trying to live as an artist. I was
good at saving money when I worked, and
made a lot of it. So retiring at 53 was
doable. My husband is a financial planner
I never had kids because of my mood swings and temper. But I wasn’t treated till I was about 40. My husband and I thought my moods were learned behavior. My father was bipolar as well. We were just really ignorant or would have sought help earlier.
I haven’t seen a therapist for about three years. I’ve had enough—I think I mentioned that. The therapist I had specialized in PTSD and mood disorders. She and I clicked right away.
I guess the bottom line is that I am just plain lucky to have good docs and good support at hone. That makes a big difference in how one copes. But I do know there is life after diagnosis. It is not always easy, but for me having strong faith and church activities helps.
I see my doc every 2-3 months, but he is always available for emergency.
Weight gain since meds has been the worst, 90 pounds!!! It sucks. I now have metabolic disorder and I blame meds for that. But some things you just have to live with. Part of the disease.
That’s all I can think of. Sorry to ramble! If you have questions, just ask! I’ll try to remember to check this site. I’ve switched to the eMoods app since moodtracker started charging $ to see the nine years of medication data I have. So I’ve stopped logging moods here. Pisses me off!