I've been where you are! I wasn't diagnosed with cyclothymia until I was 43! I was on a quit smoking drug called Chantix. I, like you, jumped on the hypomanic train. The fine print said do not take this if you are manic depressive, may cause hypomanic episodes. Like your antidepressant, the fluoxetine... You get all manicky... Require little sleep, thoughts racing, mouth can't keep up, creativity heightened, cyberchondria? high irritability, perhaps outbursts and fits of rage? Loss of appetite? My psychiatrist explained that fluoxetine kicks you into a hypomanic state and the symptoms of your condition get extreme. You need a mood stabilizer like lithium carbonate to balance it out (the SSRI). I know that every person reacts differently to medication. For me, the med cocktail that has transformed my life is lithium, wellbutrin, xanax and lamictal. It may seem completely terrifying at 16 to wrestle with this "label" this mood/personality disorder... You're sooo fortunate to find out young so that you can learn all about our disorder, how to manage, cope, and live with the symptoms. You have the opportunity to lead a relatively normal life. Shoot! This disorder, untreated, is devastating to one's self-esteem, your relationships, your lousy track record at work.... Our symptoms are mild so you can fly right under the radar, like I did, and never know you have this disorder that explains your spooky mood swings and "artistic temperament.". Always remember... Don't allow the disorder to define you, and overly impact your identity... the symptoms are treatable with the right combo of meds just for you. If you don't feel good with your present psych doc, get another one who's a brilliant chemist. Your brain is deficient in lithium.... Isn't that way more comforting than living with the belief about yourself that youʻre temperamental and difficult to work with? I went all my life self-medicating with alcohol, marijuana and cigarettes. You don't have to go this route!! With early detection, you have a fighting chance of getting a handle on the symptoms. Journal about what triggers set you off and learn/apply strategies to avoid those triggers. Try to establish a set routine everyday and follow it. Learn all you can about our disorder... "knowledge is power." I was moved to tears when I read today about Catherine Zeta-Jones speaking out about her struggle with bipolar II... Millions of people deal with the spectrum of manic-depressive disorders and never get treated or even know they have a condition. Hopefully her brave and courageous statement will inspire many more to seek help My doc said genetics are a major factor for developing all forms of bipolar, so the Prozac would not CAUSE cyclothymia... Look back in your family tree, both sides, and you'll most likely see it in your family history. All the best to you on your journey...
Be well and fight to keep your joy and enthusiasm for life!!!
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