I am new to the forum. I am trying to figure out whether I have PMDD. Every couple of months or every other months I get uncontrollably anxious, tired, depressive, impulsive, etc. It depends on the month, it might be tired and depressed or anxious and panicky another time.
I have a history of anxiety disorder and am on medication, I am therapy twice a week (one is a group and other day is one-on-one). I have tried all kinds of medications for these issues. When things are really bad, it is an out of body experience. It is consistently during my period that things are bad. The time before and during the period I also tend to binge drink. I don't want to drink and I am typically able to stay away from alcohol if I am feeling emotionally strong. I have done some things that have scared me during these times (blacking out, taking cabs to have one more drink). I binge drink because my emotions are intolerable. I attend alcohol abstinence support groups when I can. I live a full life, busy work days and time at the gym.
I have been told that I have Premenstral Exacerbation of my mental health symptoms. I haven't had the opportunity to discuss this with my gyn because this idea of PMDD is a new development to me.
I am terrified about next week and the week after as I am in the middle of my pack of Yasmin tonight. I also am tapering off Effexor XR and slowly trying Cymbalta again. I am at 20mg of Cymbalta and 112.5 of Effexor XR. I have been on both before. the effexor xr really seemed to make my behavior just go way out of bounds during this last period. I lost it at work in front of my boss and I don't know why i still have my job, to be honest. I no longer am in a romantic relationship, but that is probably for the best. Also, it is difficult for my parents, a primary support system to me, to trust me and how I am feeling. They worry about me living along, whether I am going to hurt myself with alcohol or by other means. Things were so bad last month that I was very suicidal. It i is just strange that things can be so bad one or two months in a row then there will be little emotional worsening let's say the next month. I am hoping that this month it won't be that bad. It is just that I do not know what will happen, ever. It will be something, I just don't know what it will be, as I think I stated at the beginning of the post. Has anyone experienced a similar trouble? I have IBS with constipation, mainly constipation now. I have had that since I was 17 and I am 33. They thought it might be endometriosis way back when i was 17 and I was put on a birth control pill. I have been on birth control pill since then. I take medication at night to get to sleep too. Librium and benadryl, plus laxatives to just have a bowel movement. there are drugs for just about all my many chronic conditions. Is it possible that the birth control pill may have caused this problem? Perhaps, since I have been on it for so long?
Thanks, in advance, to anyone who responds.