I had never been diagnosed with anything except stress, but last Tues, I absoluately flipped out. I had too much wine on top of too many allergy pills (I only took the prescribed dose). I of course know better than that, but I did it anyway. I only remember about 15 minutes of the night, but I did some severly nasty things, like hitting my husband, throwing things, making up lies in phone calls, emails. I woke up the next day with no husband and the house was destroyed. I went to a psychiatrist and she said..personality disorder, NOS, rule out bipolar, borderline personality disorder, and PTSD ; mainly because of my childhood and family history and of course by what happened. My husband left me and is considering coming back since I got help, but I am lost in how to possibly live with and accept the fact that I was so incredibly cruel to him and everyone I sent the emails to. How do you get past something like this? That was my last drink forever by the way.
Joined: 03-04-2009