CAhulaw2007. Uh--well wow. I am sure you already know, or suspect that strictly speaking most Western scientific thought would label your aura seeing as part of the mania cycle. I however, am not so sure. I think there is a lot modern science (East or West) just does not know or know how to measure yet. After all, we had to have microscopes before we could confirm bacteria caused disease (although there was compelling statistical evidence before that) and electron microscopes and special dyes before we could see viruses. A lot of Eastern thought deals with chi--or a person's energy flow. So I wouldn't entirely rule out seeing auras.
I would also have an eye check--retinas can go wonky too and lead to seeing things strangely. So do some pre-migraine syndromes.
The thing is tho, if it bothers you and interferes with your daily functioning, you may want to treat it as part of the mania, or at least learn how to ignore it. I would be cautious in dealing with any negative black aura folks, but I would also hesitate in pre-judging them because there is no objective data on what, if anything a black aura means.
The loud noise in your head sounds like it is really bothering you and not much of an asset or interest. (at least the auras sound interesting.) If you haven't already done so, I suggest seeing an audiologist, the inner and middle ear can do strange things to people at times. After that is ruled out as a cause it sounds to me (no pun intended) that this is something you might want to work with your pdoc and others on eliminating or controlling.
I think the main thing is to be in a state where you can live a happy life with your partner, job, and any other interests. I hope you feel that way soon.
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