Mooky, sometimes excessive guilt IS bipolar related. Your moods and emotions pull you all over the place, your thoughts race and you feel awful.
You didn't miss the wake because you are a bad child, you missed out on the wake because of a communication breakdown. There is a big difference between a BBQ and a Living Wake. I am sure that if you'd known it was a living wake, you would have done everything to be there.
I'm sorry that you'll have to deal with an angry sister because that adds to your stress. One of the major triggers for my son's bipolar is rejection or disapproval. It is a major crisis for him and mucks him up for a while. That is another reason why I say your post is bipolar related. You are in a crisis and there are many people here who can relate to the stress of it all. You shouldn't go through this alone.
Kind regards,
Kelpie
Joined: 01-27-2009