I'm not sure where to post this, because the topic really doesn't fit much of anywhere. I supposed since my diagnosis is Bipolar, I'll post it here.
I haven't been on the boards for a while because my Mother passed away on March 15th. It was a rather unexpected course of events and I wanted to share with those of you whom I've come to know and appreciate so well!
My Mom was 74 and had Acute Leukemia. She was taking chemotherapy to try to kill the cancer in her bone marrow. This made her platellets very low. On 3/10, she was rolling her garbage out to the curb when she fell on the driveway and hit her head. This injury caused a bleed in her brain. Because her blood counts were so low, the injury was not able to clot and it because evident pretty quickly that she would die from the trauma.
I flew home to Georgia, from New York, to be with my family and to see Mom. She was in the ICU. After we talked to the Neurosurgeon, it was abundantly clear to us that any treatment they gave her would only prolong her life and not save her life. So, we decided to take her home, with hospice, so that she could be with family and friends. She was a very social person (like me!!).
I am the oldest daughter and the final decision to remove all treatment landed on me. It was the hardest decision of my life. But, I know that my mother did NOT want life support or heroic measures. When we got her home, she relaxed and became peaceful. Many, many friends and family came to see her and love her and hug her. It was beautiful. She was home for three days, and then quietly, peacefully, and gently, went to be with her Lord.
I'm still pretty numb. I feel nothing. I didn't cry at the funeral, because I knew she was in a better place with a healed and whole body. I'm at work, doing what I have to do. Next week, I go back to Georgia to fulfill my role as Executor of the estate. It will be complicated.
I had been having a terrible time sleeping. But my Pdoc changed my regular Seroquel to and extended release Seroquel. That is really doing the job. I have been sleeping 7 or 8 hours nearly every night. However, there's never enough sleep. I could sleep all day if someone would let me. But, I'm just too darned responsible.
Anyway, I just wanted to share. I wanted to tell y'all what happened. I didn't just drop off the face of the earth.
Be well,
Jules
Medications for March 2009
| 10-24-2007 - Present: | Colace, 100 mg. 1 tab am, 1 tab hs |
10-24-2007 - Present: | Protonix, 40 mg. 1 tab hs |
10-24-2007 - Present: | Seroquel, 50 mg. 1or2 tabs prn tid anxiety |
06-03-2008 - Present: | Tegretol XR, 400mg. 1 am, 1 hs |
06-03-2008 - Present: | Topamax, 50 mg. 2 tabs am, 2 tabs pm |
06-03-2008 - Present: | Celexa, 10mg. 1 tab am |
08-12-2008 - Present: | Hydroxyzine, 25mg. 1 or 2 tabs prn allergy relief |
08-12-2008 - 05-24-2009: | Seroquel, 100 to 300mg . adjust as needed sleep |
01-01-2009 - Present: | Ortho Cyclin, 1 tab. qd skip placebo |
01-01-2009 - Present: | B100 complex T-R, 100mg. 2 tabs am |
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| 10-24-2007 - Present: | Colace, 100 mg. 1 tab am, 1 tab hs |
10-24-2007 - Present: | Protonix, 40 mg. 1 tab hs |
10-24-2007 - Present: | Seroquel, 50 mg. 1or2 tabs prn tid anxiety |
06-03-2008 - Present: | Tegretol XR, 400mg. 1 am, 1 hs |
06-03-2008 - Present: | Topamax, 50 mg. 2 tabs am, 2 tabs pm |
06-03-2008 - Present: | Celexa, 10mg. 1 tab am |
08-12-2008 - Present: | Hydroxyzine, 25mg. 1 or 2 tabs prn allergy relief |
08-12-2008 - 05-24-2009: | Seroquel, 100 to 300mg . adjust as needed sleep |
01-01-2009 - Present: | Ortho Cyclin, 1 tab. qd skip placebo |
01-01-2009 - Present: | B100 complex T-R, 100mg. 2 tabs am |
03-25-2009 - Present: | Seroquel XR, 300 mg. 1 tab 9:00pm |
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Joined: 10-30-2007