Hi Dixie,
I've read your post and I really would like to give you a big hug. I've had major depression for years and I have learned to be very aware of the thought in my mind that say's, "I don't need these meds any more". That sentence in my head is a big warning to me that I DO have to keep taking the meds. Nothing good has ever happened when I've stopped taking my meds.
My son is bipolar and we have friends and other relatives who are bipolar. I don't think any of them have been described as normal, but they are funny, artistic, social, talented, caring (sometimes) people. Sometimes they have a rough trot but they are much loved through good and bad. They are never boring. I would never want to be without any of them. I know it isn't easy to be bipolar but try not to let the label define who you are.
I'm sorry you are feeling so low. Some meds take a while to work. You just have to hang in there until they kick in. There are people on this forum who can relate to what you're saying. You are not alone and people on this forum are very supportive and caring.
Big hug,
Kelpie
Joined: 03-26-2009