Not good enough
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April 6, 2009 - 6:57 pm
I'm so fatigued that it's everything I can do to get out of bed and do a load of dishes. The housework is piling up on me and my sons tuba practice is a hit or miss kind of thing. Sometimes I don't even bother teaching him and other times i get so frustrated with him I end up yelling and making him bawl. Not a good way to play the tuba.
My whole family is in this funk and i know it's because of me. I've been marking my mood as mild depressed and doing all my coping skills trying to pull out of it but the kids take their ques from me so it feels like i have to pull all of us out of the funk.
It's strange that I actually feel rather up beat much of the time but still feel just slowed down. I'm like a 45 played at 33. (Old record player reference for those of you too young to know.)
Looking at the big picture I'm much better than I was last year but why do I still feel like I'm not good enough? I'm "normal"most of the time now and still feel like my family would do better without me.
If this is as good as I get I have to wonder if it's really worth it.
My whole family is in this funk and i know it's because of me. I've been marking my mood as mild depressed and doing all my coping skills trying to pull out of it but the kids take their ques from me so it feels like i have to pull all of us out of the funk.
It's strange that I actually feel rather up beat much of the time but still feel just slowed down. I'm like a 45 played at 33. (Old record player reference for those of you too young to know.)
Looking at the big picture I'm much better than I was last year but why do I still feel like I'm not good enough? I'm "normal"most of the time now and still feel like my family would do better without me.
If this is as good as I get I have to wonder if it's really worth it.
43.7% of all statistics are made up on the spot.
I'm so fatigued that it's everything I can do to get out of bed and do a load of dishes. The housework is piling up on me and my sons tuba practice is a hit or miss kind of thing. Sometimes I don't even bother teaching him and other times i get so frustrated with him I end up yelling and making him bawl. Not a good way to play the tuba.
My whole family is in this funk and i know it's because of me. I've been marking my mood as mild depressed and doing all my coping skills trying to pull out of it but the kids take their ques from me so it feels like i have to pull all of us out of the funk.
It's strange that I actually feel rather up beat much of the time but still feel just slowed down. I'm like a 45 played at 33. (Old record player reference for those of you too young to know.)
Looking at the big picture I'm much better than I was last year but why do I still feel like I'm not good enough? I'm "normal"most of the time now and still feel like my family would do better without me.
If this is as good as I get I have to wonder if it's really worth it.
My whole family is in this funk and i know it's because of me. I've been marking my mood as mild depressed and doing all my coping skills trying to pull out of it but the kids take their ques from me so it feels like i have to pull all of us out of the funk.
It's strange that I actually feel rather up beat much of the time but still feel just slowed down. I'm like a 45 played at 33. (Old record player reference for those of you too young to know.)
Looking at the big picture I'm much better than I was last year but why do I still feel like I'm not good enough? I'm "normal"most of the time now and still feel like my family would do better without me.
If this is as good as I get I have to wonder if it's really worth it.
43.7% of all statistics are made up on the spot.
April 7, 2009 - 4:16 pm
Total Posts: 7
Joined: 01-25-2008
Joined: 01-25-2008
:/ I doubt I can really help you. Because I don't have a family of my own, in that sort. But I really don't think they'd be better off without you. I mean less trouble and things like that maybe. Because I think of that all the time.
But they love you, and in the end I really do think people who really love you, would rather put up with you and help, and take care of you somtimes if need be, than not have you at all.
;-; idk hope i helped a little. I dont want you to feel bad... -hug- n.n
But they love you, and in the end I really do think people who really love you, would rather put up with you and help, and take care of you somtimes if need be, than not have you at all.
;-; idk hope i helped a little. I dont want you to feel bad... -hug- n.n
:/ I doubt I can really help you. Because I don't have a family of my own, in that sort. But I really don't think they'd be better off without you. I mean less trouble and things like that maybe. Because I think of that all the time.
But they love you, and in the end I really do think people who really love you, would rather put up with you and help, and take care of you somtimes if need be, than not have you at all.
;-; idk hope i helped a little. I dont want you to feel bad... -hug- n.n
But they love you, and in the end I really do think people who really love you, would rather put up with you and help, and take care of you somtimes if need be, than not have you at all.
;-; idk hope i helped a little. I dont want you to feel bad... -hug- n.n
April 7, 2009 - 9:06 pm
Total Posts: 3
Joined: 04-07-2009
Joined: 04-07-2009
I definantly agree. They'd be crushed with out you because they've loved you for so long even if you've put them through something they weren't prepared for. Then again, are we prepared for anything that life gives us? They know you are trying too and you should give yourself more credit. The fact that you can see that you're better then you were before is a beautiful thing because it gets kind of distorted and shady when you're depressed. Looking on the good side of things is awesome! I wish you a lot of luck!
I definantly agree. They'd be crushed with out you because they've loved you for so long even if you've put them through something they weren't prepared for. Then again, are we prepared for anything that life gives us? They know you are trying too and you should give yourself more credit. The fact that you can see that you're better then you were before is a beautiful thing because it gets kind of distorted and shady when you're depressed. Looking on the good side of things is awesome! I wish you a lot of luck!
April 7, 2009 - 9:51 pm
Total Posts: 203
Joined: 01-27-2009
Joined: 01-27-2009
rm_13 and burgoobwah
Thanks for your kind words. I know they wouldn't be better off without me. I was just feeling really down when I posted....Sorry. I guess I just invited every one to my pity party.
I'm doing better today. Still not up to par but at least I got moving today and got some work done.
My family is wonderful. It seems like no matter what I say or do they just keep hanging in there with me.
Sounds a lot like you guys. Thanks for coming to my pity party but I'm afraid the party's over. LOL
Thanks for your kind words. I know they wouldn't be better off without me. I was just feeling really down when I posted....Sorry. I guess I just invited every one to my pity party.
I'm doing better today. Still not up to par but at least I got moving today and got some work done.
My family is wonderful. It seems like no matter what I say or do they just keep hanging in there with me.
Sounds a lot like you guys. Thanks for coming to my pity party but I'm afraid the party's over. LOL
rm_13 and burgoobwah
Thanks for your kind words. I know they wouldn't be better off without me. I was just feeling really down when I posted....Sorry. I guess I just invited every one to my pity party.
I'm doing better today. Still not up to par but at least I got moving today and got some work done.
My family is wonderful. It seems like no matter what I say or do they just keep hanging in there with me.
Sounds a lot like you guys. Thanks for coming to my pity party but I'm afraid the party's over. LOL
Thanks for your kind words. I know they wouldn't be better off without me. I was just feeling really down when I posted....Sorry. I guess I just invited every one to my pity party.
I'm doing better today. Still not up to par but at least I got moving today and got some work done.
My family is wonderful. It seems like no matter what I say or do they just keep hanging in there with me.
Sounds a lot like you guys. Thanks for coming to my pity party but I'm afraid the party's over. LOL
Joined: 01-27-2009