OUT OF CONTROL????

Okay here we go again. And I do hope this is the right place for this. I am still trying to learn the forum.....Today when I woke I was feeling blah and crappy. Some where along the way I feel like I was going out of control. I place it in the mood chart. But I don't know what to do. I mean I went out side to clear my head. And watched the wild birds at the feeder. But I felt so manic. Like a crazy woman with no one to hurt. LOL Sorr y that may be in bad tatse. But I am confused. Before I knew I was suffering from being bipolar these emotins where used to clean the house. Because I knew nothing else to do with what I was feeling. The house is so clean now. From all the feelings that come from no where. It is like I am up when I wake and can go go go. Than i may go down than back up, And I want to cry as I am typing this. Because I feel so out of control. Yesterday I never left the house I fely blah major time. I watch TV all day yesterday. And omg that something I never do during the day. I feel like I have got to be out side getting so great rays. (not tanning) if I don;t get some sun I feel depressed. And now we are expecting a major strom tonight. And to last for the day tomorrow. ARGH...I am feeling it now that feeling of i got to go. And not caring where I go. HELP!!!! ME!!!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!

Oh Dixie, you are in the right place. You are not alone. There are people here who know exactly what you're living through. I felt a panic attack coming at the shop a few days ago and I thought that was bad. Obviously it was nothing compared to what is happening to you. It can take a little while for your meds to start working and you might notice some changes in your mood. Just hang in there and keep talking to people who understand and encourage you.
Kelpie

Dixie
Hang on! Call your Doc if it gets any worse and next time you are feeling more in control get to work on a plan for what to do at these times. Family and friends as well as your tdoc or pdoc can help with thing to get you through until your mind calms down.
I'm not in the mental health field but I have felt the way you do many times. I'm not sure if you are rapid cycling or hitting a panic attack.
With a storm coming up and no way to get out and stuff I think i would turn on my CD player and start dancing. Maybe try some jumping jacks.
If you aren't a physical type of person try writing or drawing. It doesn't matter what you write or draw. What matters is that your brain has something to think about so it doesn't spin out of control.
I hope this attack doesn't last too long for you.
Just remember that we're here for you.

Whenever I get the urge to flee, I keep reminded myself that the urge will pass. Writing about my feelings helps bring me back to reality. I have even taken walks in the rain when I just can't control the urge. I tell someone how I'm feeling and they get me to promise them that I will not run away. I have actually taken off for several hours a few times and once even made it the airport before I came to my senses.

Recently I have begun wearing a blindfold to sleep better at night and even during the daytime it helps me to relax when I'm anxious. I also have emergency meds that I rarely take that will knock me out if necessary and when I wake up I feel normal.

Of course the first step is call your pdoc before you do anything you'll regret.

Oh man, you are definately in the right place and definately not alone. That is EXACTLY what I've been feeling like for the past 2-3 weeks on and off and that is EXACTLY what I end up doing. Your post seems so familiar, its exactly what I'm going through (even with the t-storm keeping me in today that is making me feel blah.)

I know that I'm a rapid cycler and it was being diagnosed wrong as anxiety for so long by my family doc. He just prescribed higher doses of Zoloft...which made the rapid cycling worse.

Welcome Dixie. I echo what everyone here has said. You are NOT ALONE. Everyone who posts here has been thru some version of what you are feeling, only the details are different. The torrent of inner storm Bipolar (of any number) unleashes is familar to us all.

I agree with everyone who has said CALL YOUR PDOC. If this is a new diagnosis the odds are your meds are not really at a solid therapeutic level in your body now. If you have 'as needed' meds, like clonazepam or xanax--use them as prescribed.(can you tell I used to be a nurse)

And one thing I have found that maybe helpful for you, when I am Hypomanic (I'm BPII) the TV just makes it worse--there is something in the light coming out of the box and the constant commercials that really grates me. I got a lot calmer just by turning it off. If you can, do a favorite activity or exercise.

If you can't don't blame yourself. Your brain chemicals are making things very hard for you now, but you are NOT doing it to yourself. Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.