After I had my baby Kaylin I had a case of the baby blues. I went to my family physician who I've been with for years and is aware of the addiction issue as well. He prescribed for me prozac for the depression and topamax as a mood stabilizer. I only took the prozac not liking what i read about the topamax. In my bipolar career my normal swing was the depression, and I could stay there for unimaginable lengths of time. The prozac sent me into such a manic that I wasnt sleeping or eating for long periods of time. I didnt recognize the feeling nor did I even know anything was wrong. At the same time I was given cipro for a uti. Cipro as well can send bipolar people manic. It also stopped or limited my body from being able to absorb the caffeine I was taking in every day. The combination of the bc powders, fioricet and pepsi everyday Im suprised I was even able to live through it. At the same time I was having a reaction to the cipro. So it was a very confusing time and there is no real reason I should have made it through all of that at the time. Because of the prozac, for the next 3 years or maybe more I will swing to the manic side. I havnt seen anything close to a depression at all. The manic for me is worse because I know what it is now. When I start swinging hard that way I become completely uncomfortable in my own skin. Many things can happen at that point. Relapse is the biggest fear, but I can also work myself into the ground or even maybe in the extremes think I can fly or other dangerous thought processes. Its important to have a psychiatrist treat you and not your family dr. Thats what I learned from all of that. I still find myself arguing some of what she says and trying to be my own dr. Thats when the manic is running a little stronger. I found out today that when I'm done with my drug program that my daughter can come home and I'm looking forward to that but still trying to stay in the day. If everything goes smoothly I should be done may 18, 2009. This time around I can finially be the mother I always wanted to be and wish that I could have been for my boys who are 12 and 9. Thats all I've got for now. I go to Narcotics Anonymous almost every night and I check in with them and let them know where Im at in my life. Now i can check in with you guys and let you know where I came from....whats working for me and ask if i need some help. Thank you for the opportunity for us to help each other get through this disorder because we can live with it and be happy too. Kamy
Medications for April 2009
| 04-08-2009 - Present: | lamictal, 300 mg. 1 time daily |
04-08-2009 - Present: | seroquel, 300 mg. 1 time daily |
04-08-2009 - Present: | revia, 50 mg. 1 time daily |
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Joined: 04-08-2009