anxiety tearing me apart
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April 11, 2009 - 12:31 am
hello everyone this i my first post on here.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 a couple of years ago when my family started to complain about my unpredictable bursts of rage and drinking problem. I would leave in the middle of the night and just drive around for hours trying to sort through my thoughts and work things out. It was very exhausting and i dropped out of college. Eventually i ended up at the county mental facility. That was awhile ago and thanks to lithium i really haven't experienced anything as destructive as that last episode.
Back to the present. For a couple of weeks now i have been experiencing some pretty severe anxiety. Almost like panic attacks. Its starting to impact my life and school now. I dont know if this is a sign of an impending bump in the road so to speak like a massive deppresion or a severe manic episiode. But really im afraid to leave my house cause i think my mood is going to flip or something. I really need to relax but this anxiety is driving me nuts. Anyone know of anything i can do to alleviate this?
Is severe anxiety common for bipolar 2 people to experience?
The whole thing is confusing which scares me. Any help is appreciated and thx for reading.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 a couple of years ago when my family started to complain about my unpredictable bursts of rage and drinking problem. I would leave in the middle of the night and just drive around for hours trying to sort through my thoughts and work things out. It was very exhausting and i dropped out of college. Eventually i ended up at the county mental facility. That was awhile ago and thanks to lithium i really haven't experienced anything as destructive as that last episode.
Back to the present. For a couple of weeks now i have been experiencing some pretty severe anxiety. Almost like panic attacks. Its starting to impact my life and school now. I dont know if this is a sign of an impending bump in the road so to speak like a massive deppresion or a severe manic episiode. But really im afraid to leave my house cause i think my mood is going to flip or something. I really need to relax but this anxiety is driving me nuts. Anyone know of anything i can do to alleviate this?
Is severe anxiety common for bipolar 2 people to experience?
The whole thing is confusing which scares me. Any help is appreciated and thx for reading.
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hello everyone this i my first post on here.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 a couple of years ago when my family started to complain about my unpredictable bursts of rage and drinking problem. I would leave in the middle of the night and just drive around for hours trying to sort through my thoughts and work things out. It was very exhausting and i dropped out of college. Eventually i ended up at the county mental facility. That was awhile ago and thanks to lithium i really haven't experienced anything as destructive as that last episode.
Back to the present. For a couple of weeks now i have been experiencing some pretty severe anxiety. Almost like panic attacks. Its starting to impact my life and school now. I dont know if this is a sign of an impending bump in the road so to speak like a massive deppresion or a severe manic episiode. But really im afraid to leave my house cause i think my mood is going to flip or something. I really need to relax but this anxiety is driving me nuts. Anyone know of anything i can do to alleviate this?
Is severe anxiety common for bipolar 2 people to experience?
The whole thing is confusing which scares me. Any help is appreciated and thx for reading.
I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 a couple of years ago when my family started to complain about my unpredictable bursts of rage and drinking problem. I would leave in the middle of the night and just drive around for hours trying to sort through my thoughts and work things out. It was very exhausting and i dropped out of college. Eventually i ended up at the county mental facility. That was awhile ago and thanks to lithium i really haven't experienced anything as destructive as that last episode.
Back to the present. For a couple of weeks now i have been experiencing some pretty severe anxiety. Almost like panic attacks. Its starting to impact my life and school now. I dont know if this is a sign of an impending bump in the road so to speak like a massive deppresion or a severe manic episiode. But really im afraid to leave my house cause i think my mood is going to flip or something. I really need to relax but this anxiety is driving me nuts. Anyone know of anything i can do to alleviate this?
Is severe anxiety common for bipolar 2 people to experience?
The whole thing is confusing which scares me. Any help is appreciated and thx for reading.
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April 11, 2009 - 8:11 am
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Welcome Nathan, firof all I am not sure if the two are related but the panic attacks could be some unresolved issue that you need to get out. Are you working in therapy? This is how some of my issues have come to surface. You could also get meds to help you with the attacks. I know its difficult to be around people or out doing things, but try not to close yourself off. Tell someone you trust what is going on so if you get the feeling of an attack starting they can help you thru it. Just make sure that the person is a safe person. Also consult with your doc if you have one if not try to find one. I hope this helps a little bit. I will keep you in my prayers. Manic
Welcome Nathan, firof all I am not sure if the two are related but the panic attacks could be some unresolved issue that you need to get out. Are you working in therapy? This is how some of my issues have come to surface. You could also get meds to help you with the attacks. I know its difficult to be around people or out doing things, but try not to close yourself off. Tell someone you trust what is going on so if you get the feeling of an attack starting they can help you thru it. Just make sure that the person is a safe person. Also consult with your doc if you have one if not try to find one. I hope this helps a little bit. I will keep you in my prayers. Manic
April 11, 2009 - 1:09 pm
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hello manic. thank you for the response. this help alot.
There are a couple of unresolved issues im dealing with. Recently i was dismissed from college, again. Was really hard for me last quarter to focus because of all the mood swings i was going through. Sometimes i think school brings up alot of my manic episodes. It seems as though most of the time i was trying to resolve all of the crap that was going through my head and not focusing on school work. So i've been debating on weather i should bring my condition to the schools attention, again, so maybe they can give me a break here i mean come on my gpa is only a fraction or a point below what it needs to be. Theres also the option of a part-time job but im really not a people person you know what i mean. I tend to create problems with co-workers. You're probably right i need to resolve this soon otherwise the anxiety will worsen. Just need to organize it all out.
Yes i see a therapist once a month. Although those people are quite annoying if you ask me lol.
There are a couple of unresolved issues im dealing with. Recently i was dismissed from college, again. Was really hard for me last quarter to focus because of all the mood swings i was going through. Sometimes i think school brings up alot of my manic episodes. It seems as though most of the time i was trying to resolve all of the crap that was going through my head and not focusing on school work. So i've been debating on weather i should bring my condition to the schools attention, again, so maybe they can give me a break here i mean come on my gpa is only a fraction or a point below what it needs to be. Theres also the option of a part-time job but im really not a people person you know what i mean. I tend to create problems with co-workers. You're probably right i need to resolve this soon otherwise the anxiety will worsen. Just need to organize it all out.
Yes i see a therapist once a month. Although those people are quite annoying if you ask me lol.
hello manic. thank you for the response. this help alot.
There are a couple of unresolved issues im dealing with. Recently i was dismissed from college, again. Was really hard for me last quarter to focus because of all the mood swings i was going through. Sometimes i think school brings up alot of my manic episodes. It seems as though most of the time i was trying to resolve all of the crap that was going through my head and not focusing on school work. So i've been debating on weather i should bring my condition to the schools attention, again, so maybe they can give me a break here i mean come on my gpa is only a fraction or a point below what it needs to be. Theres also the option of a part-time job but im really not a people person you know what i mean. I tend to create problems with co-workers. You're probably right i need to resolve this soon otherwise the anxiety will worsen. Just need to organize it all out.
Yes i see a therapist once a month. Although those people are quite annoying if you ask me lol.
There are a couple of unresolved issues im dealing with. Recently i was dismissed from college, again. Was really hard for me last quarter to focus because of all the mood swings i was going through. Sometimes i think school brings up alot of my manic episodes. It seems as though most of the time i was trying to resolve all of the crap that was going through my head and not focusing on school work. So i've been debating on weather i should bring my condition to the schools attention, again, so maybe they can give me a break here i mean come on my gpa is only a fraction or a point below what it needs to be. Theres also the option of a part-time job but im really not a people person you know what i mean. I tend to create problems with co-workers. You're probably right i need to resolve this soon otherwise the anxiety will worsen. Just need to organize it all out.
Yes i see a therapist once a month. Although those people are quite annoying if you ask me lol.
April 11, 2009 - 2:38 pm
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Nathan. Welcome to the forum. Yes, anxiety is a large part of BP II, at least for me and it is listed on the mood spectrum disorders info in "Why Am I Still Depressed?" by Dr. Jim Phelps, a good book. Anyway anxiety can be a symptom on both the Depressed and Hypomanic ends of the spectrum.
I know I have been having a lot of problems with it the past few days. One of the things my tdoc (talk therapist) and I were trying backfired and bought back a lot of bad memories, plus I was having a spate of financial stuff going on. Its a bad combination. Which is where having people you can talk to and a pdoc (a medication prescriber) comes in. Some of the anxiety comes from unresolved past issues, but some of it is just plain from the Bipolar itself messing with your brain chemicals. For me, the best thing is to attack on two fronts, get talk therapy for the unresolved stuff and med therapy for the brain chemical stuff.
And I am glad I am not trying to go to school while getting all this squared around--just getting from one day to the next can be hard enough sometimes.
I know I have been having a lot of problems with it the past few days. One of the things my tdoc (talk therapist) and I were trying backfired and bought back a lot of bad memories, plus I was having a spate of financial stuff going on. Its a bad combination. Which is where having people you can talk to and a pdoc (a medication prescriber) comes in. Some of the anxiety comes from unresolved past issues, but some of it is just plain from the Bipolar itself messing with your brain chemicals. For me, the best thing is to attack on two fronts, get talk therapy for the unresolved stuff and med therapy for the brain chemical stuff.
And I am glad I am not trying to go to school while getting all this squared around--just getting from one day to the next can be hard enough sometimes.
Nathan. Welcome to the forum. Yes, anxiety is a large part of BP II, at least for me and it is listed on the mood spectrum disorders info in "Why Am I Still Depressed?" by Dr. Jim Phelps, a good book. Anyway anxiety can be a symptom on both the Depressed and Hypomanic ends of the spectrum.
I know I have been having a lot of problems with it the past few days. One of the things my tdoc (talk therapist) and I were trying backfired and bought back a lot of bad memories, plus I was having a spate of financial stuff going on. Its a bad combination. Which is where having people you can talk to and a pdoc (a medication prescriber) comes in. Some of the anxiety comes from unresolved past issues, but some of it is just plain from the Bipolar itself messing with your brain chemicals. For me, the best thing is to attack on two fronts, get talk therapy for the unresolved stuff and med therapy for the brain chemical stuff.
And I am glad I am not trying to go to school while getting all this squared around--just getting from one day to the next can be hard enough sometimes.
I know I have been having a lot of problems with it the past few days. One of the things my tdoc (talk therapist) and I were trying backfired and bought back a lot of bad memories, plus I was having a spate of financial stuff going on. Its a bad combination. Which is where having people you can talk to and a pdoc (a medication prescriber) comes in. Some of the anxiety comes from unresolved past issues, but some of it is just plain from the Bipolar itself messing with your brain chemicals. For me, the best thing is to attack on two fronts, get talk therapy for the unresolved stuff and med therapy for the brain chemical stuff.
And I am glad I am not trying to go to school while getting all this squared around--just getting from one day to the next can be hard enough sometimes.
April 11, 2009 - 9:38 pm
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Hello Nathan, you have your plate full. When I was working on my issues and working a job, it was awful! I had to quit, or they were going to fire me, and I am now on dissability until I can get my head straight. How you are going to school and dealing with your mental issues is beyond me. You must have a lot of strength in you. Please write anytime you need someone to listen, I would like to be there to help, after all who knows what your going thru better then us here....lol
Hello Nathan, you have your plate full. When I was working on my issues and working a job, it was awful! I had to quit, or they were going to fire me, and I am now on dissability until I can get my head straight. How you are going to school and dealing with your mental issues is beyond me. You must have a lot of strength in you. Please write anytime you need someone to listen, I would like to be there to help, after all who knows what your going thru better then us here....lol
April 12, 2009 - 12:07 am
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Hi Nathan,
I too have severe anxiety and actually have had the panic attacks with it. MY doctor put me on Clonezepam which has somewhat helped with the anxiety and panic episodes. Maybe you can ask your doctor to try it.
Good luck, I know what you are going through. We are all here for you.
I too have severe anxiety and actually have had the panic attacks with it. MY doctor put me on Clonezepam which has somewhat helped with the anxiety and panic episodes. Maybe you can ask your doctor to try it.
Good luck, I know what you are going through. We are all here for you.
Hi Nathan,
I too have severe anxiety and actually have had the panic attacks with it. MY doctor put me on Clonezepam which has somewhat helped with the anxiety and panic episodes. Maybe you can ask your doctor to try it.
Good luck, I know what you are going through. We are all here for you.
I too have severe anxiety and actually have had the panic attacks with it. MY doctor put me on Clonezepam which has somewhat helped with the anxiety and panic episodes. Maybe you can ask your doctor to try it.
Good luck, I know what you are going through. We are all here for you.
April 12, 2009 - 12:18 am
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Joined: 02-22-2009
Joined: 02-22-2009
hi aech. nice to know im not the only one. man you make this forum feel like home lol. I have improved today i haven't felt nearly as much anxiety as i did a couple of days ago. I think the panic attacks are over. Its like lizabeth said it just my brain chemicals imbalanced. So yeah it heals over time but the support during panic attacks is still needed.
hi aech. nice to know im not the only one. man you make this forum feel like home lol. I have improved today i haven't felt nearly as much anxiety as i did a couple of days ago. I think the panic attacks are over. Its like lizabeth said it just my brain chemicals imbalanced. So yeah it heals over time but the support during panic attacks is still needed.
April 12, 2009 - 1:14 am
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Hey Nathan,
I am so glad I decicded to read your post. I understand what you are going through. I have been struggling with what has been diagnosed as "major depreesion" for about 8 yrs but I also struggle with anxiety, major panic attacks, and some mania. Like you, I am a college student who had to withdraw. My illness whatever it may be was/is definitely impacting my life and school. I was not allowed back on campus because of a suicide attemp that occured in the dorms and was also sent to a psychiatric hospital. I am now at hoem with my family. The symptoms dont seem to be alieviated much if at all so I cant really help you there. I do however undertsand how difficult it is to calm down. Everything in my life is seeming to spin out if control. Anyway, I do hope you find some relief and just wanted you to know I truly understand. I am so glad I decided to stop by and read your post, it helped me a lot to know someone else is going through a similar circumstance. Let me know if you need anything, I am here!
I am so glad I decicded to read your post. I understand what you are going through. I have been struggling with what has been diagnosed as "major depreesion" for about 8 yrs but I also struggle with anxiety, major panic attacks, and some mania. Like you, I am a college student who had to withdraw. My illness whatever it may be was/is definitely impacting my life and school. I was not allowed back on campus because of a suicide attemp that occured in the dorms and was also sent to a psychiatric hospital. I am now at hoem with my family. The symptoms dont seem to be alieviated much if at all so I cant really help you there. I do however undertsand how difficult it is to calm down. Everything in my life is seeming to spin out if control. Anyway, I do hope you find some relief and just wanted you to know I truly understand. I am so glad I decided to stop by and read your post, it helped me a lot to know someone else is going through a similar circumstance. Let me know if you need anything, I am here!
Hey Nathan,
I am so glad I decicded to read your post. I understand what you are going through. I have been struggling with what has been diagnosed as "major depreesion" for about 8 yrs but I also struggle with anxiety, major panic attacks, and some mania. Like you, I am a college student who had to withdraw. My illness whatever it may be was/is definitely impacting my life and school. I was not allowed back on campus because of a suicide attemp that occured in the dorms and was also sent to a psychiatric hospital. I am now at hoem with my family. The symptoms dont seem to be alieviated much if at all so I cant really help you there. I do however undertsand how difficult it is to calm down. Everything in my life is seeming to spin out if control. Anyway, I do hope you find some relief and just wanted you to know I truly understand. I am so glad I decided to stop by and read your post, it helped me a lot to know someone else is going through a similar circumstance. Let me know if you need anything, I am here!
I am so glad I decicded to read your post. I understand what you are going through. I have been struggling with what has been diagnosed as "major depreesion" for about 8 yrs but I also struggle with anxiety, major panic attacks, and some mania. Like you, I am a college student who had to withdraw. My illness whatever it may be was/is definitely impacting my life and school. I was not allowed back on campus because of a suicide attemp that occured in the dorms and was also sent to a psychiatric hospital. I am now at hoem with my family. The symptoms dont seem to be alieviated much if at all so I cant really help you there. I do however undertsand how difficult it is to calm down. Everything in my life is seeming to spin out if control. Anyway, I do hope you find some relief and just wanted you to know I truly understand. I am so glad I decided to stop by and read your post, it helped me a lot to know someone else is going through a similar circumstance. Let me know if you need anything, I am here!
April 12, 2009 - 4:14 pm
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hey biblechick,
Well i too am glad you read my post :). You and i share alot in common as far as or past goes. Im sure you are a good person like me but just cursed so to say with this disorder. But its just who we are. Im so happy im not alone on this. I hope you get back on your feet again. I know you will because well thats what mood disorders do lol. up and down and then back up.
Anyways im feel alot better today. Thank you for going out of your way to post on my forum. Do let us know how things are going in the future biblechick. take care.
Well i too am glad you read my post :). You and i share alot in common as far as or past goes. Im sure you are a good person like me but just cursed so to say with this disorder. But its just who we are. Im so happy im not alone on this. I hope you get back on your feet again. I know you will because well thats what mood disorders do lol. up and down and then back up.
Anyways im feel alot better today. Thank you for going out of your way to post on my forum. Do let us know how things are going in the future biblechick. take care.
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hey biblechick,
Well i too am glad you read my post :). You and i share alot in common as far as or past goes. Im sure you are a good person like me but just cursed so to say with this disorder. But its just who we are. Im so happy im not alone on this. I hope you get back on your feet again. I know you will because well thats what mood disorders do lol. up and down and then back up.
Anyways im feel alot better today. Thank you for going out of your way to post on my forum. Do let us know how things are going in the future biblechick. take care.
Well i too am glad you read my post :). You and i share alot in common as far as or past goes. Im sure you are a good person like me but just cursed so to say with this disorder. But its just who we are. Im so happy im not alone on this. I hope you get back on your feet again. I know you will because well thats what mood disorders do lol. up and down and then back up.
Anyways im feel alot better today. Thank you for going out of your way to post on my forum. Do let us know how things are going in the future biblechick. take care.
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April 12, 2009 - 6:25 pm
Total Posts: 10
Joined: 04-08-2009
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its half one in the morning and i cant sleep so i annalysed all my poetry for gcse then wrote a poem attempt on the last few hours, tbh, has no rhyme and stucture, just how i feel
when the blood pumbs through you so fast
your body shakes stupid, faster
and you roll up to hold yourself together
yet you still feel the pulse quicker and quicker
and everything you've dreamed away
dawns on you at once
in all its importance
and you cant ignore it,
you have to act on it now
and your emotions get torn in a way you cant understand
soo much to do
soo much you have to do
jump jump jump jump
your stupidity, past mistakes, regrets
they all matter
they all cause this pain and need
so you switch on the light
and you read, you note, you work
faster than you ever do in the wakeing hours
and yet theres soo much running to do
you can sprint your heart out but you'll never get there
you work work work
and then you cry
you cry for the things you didnt and couldnt achieve
the things you wanted to do with those precious few hours
but couldnt
a little random i suppose... x feeling a little better now, made a plan of everything ill do in the next week, tho i never follow plans but hey, all i have to do now is sleep, so this revisions not futile, easier said than done however
when the blood pumbs through you so fast
your body shakes stupid, faster
and you roll up to hold yourself together
yet you still feel the pulse quicker and quicker
and everything you've dreamed away
dawns on you at once
in all its importance
and you cant ignore it,
you have to act on it now
and your emotions get torn in a way you cant understand
soo much to do
soo much you have to do
jump jump jump jump
your stupidity, past mistakes, regrets
they all matter
they all cause this pain and need
so you switch on the light
and you read, you note, you work
faster than you ever do in the wakeing hours
and yet theres soo much running to do
you can sprint your heart out but you'll never get there
you work work work
and then you cry
you cry for the things you didnt and couldnt achieve
the things you wanted to do with those precious few hours
but couldnt
a little random i suppose... x feeling a little better now, made a plan of everything ill do in the next week, tho i never follow plans but hey, all i have to do now is sleep, so this revisions not futile, easier said than done however
its half one in the morning and i cant sleep so i annalysed all my poetry for gcse then wrote a poem attempt on the last few hours, tbh, has no rhyme and stucture, just how i feel
when the blood pumbs through you so fast
your body shakes stupid, faster
and you roll up to hold yourself together
yet you still feel the pulse quicker and quicker
and everything you've dreamed away
dawns on you at once
in all its importance
and you cant ignore it,
you have to act on it now
and your emotions get torn in a way you cant understand
soo much to do
soo much you have to do
jump jump jump jump
your stupidity, past mistakes, regrets
they all matter
they all cause this pain and need
so you switch on the light
and you read, you note, you work
faster than you ever do in the wakeing hours
and yet theres soo much running to do
you can sprint your heart out but you'll never get there
you work work work
and then you cry
you cry for the things you didnt and couldnt achieve
the things you wanted to do with those precious few hours
but couldnt
a little random i suppose... x feeling a little better now, made a plan of everything ill do in the next week, tho i never follow plans but hey, all i have to do now is sleep, so this revisions not futile, easier said than done however
when the blood pumbs through you so fast
your body shakes stupid, faster
and you roll up to hold yourself together
yet you still feel the pulse quicker and quicker
and everything you've dreamed away
dawns on you at once
in all its importance
and you cant ignore it,
you have to act on it now
and your emotions get torn in a way you cant understand
soo much to do
soo much you have to do
jump jump jump jump
your stupidity, past mistakes, regrets
they all matter
they all cause this pain and need
so you switch on the light
and you read, you note, you work
faster than you ever do in the wakeing hours
and yet theres soo much running to do
you can sprint your heart out but you'll never get there
you work work work
and then you cry
you cry for the things you didnt and couldnt achieve
the things you wanted to do with those precious few hours
but couldnt
a little random i suppose... x feeling a little better now, made a plan of everything ill do in the next week, tho i never follow plans but hey, all i have to do now is sleep, so this revisions not futile, easier said than done however
April 13, 2009 - 4:51 pm
Total Posts: 20
Joined: 04-08-2009
Joined: 04-08-2009
When I was around 17 my panic attacks started. I was haunted by them for years and being agrophobic and staying in my safety area only. Again oddly enough to my exposure to the drug world I stumbled upon exstacy. The first time I experimented with it I had a seizure. Funny enough my body has never reacted properly to any drug. Well after that I havnt had another panic attack again. Thats been almost 8 years. I'm not even close to saying hey try my way because it kills alot of people on their first time, but that was my experience with it. My life is alot more free since then and I dont deal with any abnormal type of anxiety. Again alot of that now has to do with the 12 step programs that I'm in. They help me manage everyday life without freaking out. Im involved with dcf and my daughter is in foster care and has been since last september. If anything was going to either shortcircuit or shut me down it would have been this situation. The Ghod of my understanding helps me get through everyday not only without getting high but being ok with myself and my disorders.
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When I was around 17 my panic attacks started. I was haunted by them for years and being agrophobic and staying in my safety area only. Again oddly enough to my exposure to the drug world I stumbled upon exstacy. The first time I experimented with it I had a seizure. Funny enough my body has never reacted properly to any drug. Well after that I havnt had another panic attack again. Thats been almost 8 years. I'm not even close to saying hey try my way because it kills alot of people on their first time, but that was my experience with it. My life is alot more free since then and I dont deal with any abnormal type of anxiety. Again alot of that now has to do with the 12 step programs that I'm in. They help me manage everyday life without freaking out. Im involved with dcf and my daughter is in foster care and has been since last september. If anything was going to either shortcircuit or shut me down it would have been this situation. The Ghod of my understanding helps me get through everyday not only without getting high but being ok with myself and my disorders.
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