Panicatacgir
I am so glad you went to the emergency room. I am really sad that you were not able to fill the prescription, I know how that goes. I'm sure Friday feels like a hundred years away until you see that psychiatrist.
Please call these people.
http://www.nami.org/Template.c... (internet link)
This is a link to all the NAMI offices in NC. Nami is the National Alliance of mental illness. You should be able to find the phone number of someone close to your town if not in it that can help you. Tell them all of the things you just put in this post. It is VERY important that you don't sugar coat things with someone who can help you. None of us want to tell someone that we fear we are a danger to ourself and/or others, but it is the only way we can get help.
Here is a helpline number for NAMI in NC 800- 451-9682. They are open M-F 8:30 am-5pm.
They have tons of rescources including support groups, classes to help you and your loved ones understand the illness. peer to peer education where someone who has been through what you are dealing with can help you through. They should also be able to show you other rescources.
http://www.pparxnc.org/ (another link). This is to the Partnership of Prescription Assistance of NC. Drug companies will usually provide people their meds if they can't afford them, the form is on the site.
When you see the pdoc they will most likely give you samples to get you through for a little while so that can tide you until you can get on state assistance or the partnership can help you.
It sounds as though as much as you want a job, you will not be able to do it right now. I have been there many times. It looks like there is not state disability in NC like there is in other states but here is a phone number and link to Disability Rights of NC which helps people with disability's and mental illness get the help they need. 1-877-235-4210 (Voice)
http://www.disabilityrightsnc.... I'm not going to lie to you and say you will be great in six weeks. But you will probably be sleeping and feel like life is more managable. You also need to get a tdoc (therapist) if you don't already have one, it is crucial in getting better. The meds take away a lot of the symptoms, but your emotional pain will not be cured, just more managable. A Tdoc can help you manage that. If a tdoc is not optional due to funds, please consider a support group until you can at least see a tdoc.
You are in my thoughts and I will keep checking on you. You are on the right track.
Again, please call 911 or go to the emergency room if you need to, and if a hospital is necessary, then so be it, full time therapy and meds may be your best route. I know it sounds like no fun at all, but on the upside your parents may see that how seroius your condition is if they don't already know.
There is also another option and that is a half way house (not a good term, but a good place). Depending on your age, you can find a place locally that will help you stay on your meds, see tdocs, you can live there for almost no rent and they help you find the job. It is a solution that will last anywhere from 6-18 months depending on the place and it is a hell of a lot better then being on the street.
There is empowerment in taking some of these steps. You are taking the control back from your brain that is betraying you right now. You don't need to use all of these rescources, I know it is overwhelming, but try at least one and keep the rest in your back pocket for a rainy day.
Good Luck!
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