I don't do short very well, but I wanted to state MY expectations for coming to MoodTracker. After I spent a lot of hours, especially in the first year or two after my diagnosis five years ago, anguishing over what triggered changes in my psycho cycle, and downswings in particular, I finally decided it's simply a matter of timing conspiring with diet, exercise, and sleep.. and I've quit looking for triggers. The "cusp" feeling is pretty distinctive, and I'd like to be able to anticipate whether I'm swinging up or down. The meds make the swings less pronounced, but not a lot less infrequent.. mainly a LOT less pronounced. That's the way it seems to me.
So I came to the Tracker to see if I could find a regularity in the events. I've mentoned that I write and journal, but that's not a good way to try to keep up, mainly because, like a "good" manic, I'm keeping three or four journals at once. THERE"S a telling remark; I have notions about what manic and depressed look like but I only "recognize" them in the past tense.. liike, "oh I guess I was kinda depessed that day" or.. "hmm wow, I let a couple of days of normal get by."
I must admit I like mania better than depression and the time I went off meds for a year was mainly because my doc had hit a cocktail that wiped out the manic and made the the psychic landscape too flat and too uninteresting.
Medications for May 2009
| 10-09-2007 - Present: | Depakote, 1000 mg. 2 x daily |
11-09-2008 - Present: | Wellbutrin, 150 mg. daily |
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Joined: 05-09-2009