Cheesepuff,
Mooks is so right... everything that she said to you. She's a smart lady, and I give her lots of credit.
I know what it is like to feel alone. I also know what it is like to be teased and misunderstood by those around me.
My mother taught me something that really sticks with me. She suffered from major depression and often felt left out and alone. One day she was at church dinner, feeling alone and it came to her that she maybe she was looking at it wrong. She thought, "I'm so worried about not having anyone to sit with, what if someone else needs a friend? What if someone else needs company?" So, she looked for someone who was eating alone and asked them if she could join them.
I want you to know that she never ate alone again. She always found someone who "needed" HER company. And she loved making a difference, all the while not feeling lonely, herself. When my mother passed away two months ago, there were over 200 people who came to our home in her last few days to make sure that they told her how much she meant to them.
Now, that's a success story. That's a legacy of a depressed woman who turned it around.
So, maybe "they" don't want to be friends, or "they" tease you. But, there are lots more people than "they" out there. Who is out there that needs a friend? So what if they're not one of the beautiful people? I bet they may need a friend at least as much as you do.
I dunno.... just an idea.
As for the guy thing.... Guys are WAY over rated. When they're young, they don't know what they're missing. I hear your pain. I was a fat kid who never had a boyfriend until I went away to college. I was over 30 when I married. But, it was WELL worth the wait. Now I have a man who loves me more than I could have ever hoped to be loved. He's a keeper.
Hang in there puff, girl! You can do this. You have a lot to share... and better yet, you have a gift to give to the world. I can't wait to see what it might be.
Be well,
Jules
Joined: 05-12-2009