i'm so scared, im not on meds but want it all to go away, want it to go away so much i cant tell anyone to help because id have to accept it, and i dont want to accept it because its so permenant, like while i deny it im only messing up my whole life temporarily and it will go away, but every1 hates me how i am, rows surround me and noone understands or can cope with me hw i am, least of all me, and im fed up of being so suicidal, and i wish i believed in god or something to hang onto but i cant, and as im such a coward i see no exits
this is me stable, and looking at my life im watching it all fall apart already, and if i dont take it away, im going to have to fcae this mess somehow, if not accepting the cause at least accepting the damage
and im so scared, scared the people i love will give up on trying to understand and help and think me a brat
im scared i'll give up myself
Joined: 01-27-2009