I hope that by joining this community and utilizing the resources I can become more aware of myself and my disorder. I would love any advice you may have in dealing with depression/mania, taking medication regularly, or other major bipolar topics.
My name is Amanda. I am 23.
I'm in the midst of denial even though its been two years since my diagnosis. I journal about my existential battle daily.
I detest pills. I've been on a variety that I am on no more that includes Amibilfy, Equetro, Xanax, Ambien, Lithium SR (I'm on ER now), Zyprexa, Wellbutrin, Trazadone, Seroquel. I have trouble regularly taking my Lamictal because it produces a HORRID metallic after-taste. I often try to reflect on days past and pretend I was better without medication.
Work has suffered. I exhausted all FMLA until October when I start accruing it back and I'm terrified that I'm going to lose my job. Oversleeping, eating healthy, exercise, and a strong support team has kept me afloat.
I have regular talk therapy every week to every two weeks depending on the severity of my symptoms.
I don't know how many other websites you may use , but I'm also involved with facingus.com and dbsalliance.org.
I'm thinking about going to group therapy with DBSA. Any thoughts on group therapy?
Also, I was thinking about providing some "Crisis Planning" to my family and close friends and giving a Medical POA to my mother or boyfriend.
I want to be safe, but I know that no matter where we turn, bipolar will be there.
Any thoughts, well wishes, advice would be much appreciated.
Thank you :)
Medications for June 2009
| 12-19-2007 - Present: | Lamictal/Lamotrigine, 400 mg. 1 |
12-21-2007 - Present: | Clonazepam/Klonopin, 1 mg. 1 |
10-18-2008 - Present: | Lithium Carbonate, 900 mg. 1 |
10-18-2008 - Present: | Citalopram/Celexa, 30 mg. 1 |
10-18-2008 - Present: | Remeron/Mirtazipine, 30 mg. 1 |
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Joined: 06-18-2009