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June 22, 2009 - 7:55 pm
I'll try to be brief.. oops, already didn't make it.
I had a psychotic episode five years ago ( I call it my very public breakdown) which led to my diagnosis as BP, schizophrenic. Yay! All it took was about four or five days of ultrafast rapid cycling, hitting the manic peaks and almost suicidal lows eight or ten times a day, for ME to realize "this JUST aint right." I'm pretty sure there was a "trigger incident' but when I look back @ old journal stuff I can see that I'd been doing the cycle thing (tho' not like the days of ultra fast stuff) for fifteen or twenty years.. probably always.. it took that week of being completely and noticably out of control to send me looking for help. Luckily I got it quickly and.. wow, my psychiatrist put me on Depakote and gave me some Lorazepam (Ativan?) to get by until I got to the "saturation level" with the Depakote and I've been mainly okay ever since. I hit a stretch afer a year on the meds where I thought I was beter off without them, so I quit taking them,and it took not quite a year to realize that I wasn't. I've been blessed NOT to have had ANY recognizable side effects from the Depakote or the Seroquel I took that first year (the pdoc didn't put it in the regimen when I came back). On the other hand, I have a "history" of recreational drug use and lately I've done some self-dosing with Ambien.. for fun. I think I'm over that; I don't think it was much fun.. I don't remember.
I had a psychotic episode five years ago ( I call it my very public breakdown) which led to my diagnosis as BP, schizophrenic. Yay! All it took was about four or five days of ultrafast rapid cycling, hitting the manic peaks and almost suicidal lows eight or ten times a day, for ME to realize "this JUST aint right." I'm pretty sure there was a "trigger incident' but when I look back @ old journal stuff I can see that I'd been doing the cycle thing (tho' not like the days of ultra fast stuff) for fifteen or twenty years.. probably always.. it took that week of being completely and noticably out of control to send me looking for help. Luckily I got it quickly and.. wow, my psychiatrist put me on Depakote and gave me some Lorazepam (Ativan?) to get by until I got to the "saturation level" with the Depakote and I've been mainly okay ever since. I hit a stretch afer a year on the meds where I thought I was beter off without them, so I quit taking them,and it took not quite a year to realize that I wasn't. I've been blessed NOT to have had ANY recognizable side effects from the Depakote or the Seroquel I took that first year (the pdoc didn't put it in the regimen when I came back). On the other hand, I have a "history" of recreational drug use and lately I've done some self-dosing with Ambien.. for fun. I think I'm over that; I don't think it was much fun.. I don't remember.
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I'll try to be brief.. oops, already didn't make it.
I had a psychotic episode five years ago ( I call it my very public breakdown) which led to my diagnosis as BP, schizophrenic. Yay! All it took was about four or five days of ultrafast rapid cycling, hitting the manic peaks and almost suicidal lows eight or ten times a day, for ME to realize "this JUST aint right." I'm pretty sure there was a "trigger incident' but when I look back @ old journal stuff I can see that I'd been doing the cycle thing (tho' not like the days of ultra fast stuff) for fifteen or twenty years.. probably always.. it took that week of being completely and noticably out of control to send me looking for help. Luckily I got it quickly and.. wow, my psychiatrist put me on Depakote and gave me some Lorazepam (Ativan?) to get by until I got to the "saturation level" with the Depakote and I've been mainly okay ever since. I hit a stretch afer a year on the meds where I thought I was beter off without them, so I quit taking them,and it took not quite a year to realize that I wasn't. I've been blessed NOT to have had ANY recognizable side effects from the Depakote or the Seroquel I took that first year (the pdoc didn't put it in the regimen when I came back). On the other hand, I have a "history" of recreational drug use and lately I've done some self-dosing with Ambien.. for fun. I think I'm over that; I don't think it was much fun.. I don't remember.
I had a psychotic episode five years ago ( I call it my very public breakdown) which led to my diagnosis as BP, schizophrenic. Yay! All it took was about four or five days of ultrafast rapid cycling, hitting the manic peaks and almost suicidal lows eight or ten times a day, for ME to realize "this JUST aint right." I'm pretty sure there was a "trigger incident' but when I look back @ old journal stuff I can see that I'd been doing the cycle thing (tho' not like the days of ultra fast stuff) for fifteen or twenty years.. probably always.. it took that week of being completely and noticably out of control to send me looking for help. Luckily I got it quickly and.. wow, my psychiatrist put me on Depakote and gave me some Lorazepam (Ativan?) to get by until I got to the "saturation level" with the Depakote and I've been mainly okay ever since. I hit a stretch afer a year on the meds where I thought I was beter off without them, so I quit taking them,and it took not quite a year to realize that I wasn't. I've been blessed NOT to have had ANY recognizable side effects from the Depakote or the Seroquel I took that first year (the pdoc didn't put it in the regimen when I came back). On the other hand, I have a "history" of recreational drug use and lately I've done some self-dosing with Ambien.. for fun. I think I'm over that; I don't think it was much fun.. I don't remember.
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