Back Again

Hi. It's been awhile. I have been through so much, I can't even describe it all. I have been through a divorce(which was a good thing, as the marriage wasn't working out in the long run). I have been through at least one relationship with another person(which sadly lasted only a month). I have made a few friends since going back to Frontier House. I have taken a HUGE step into losing weight(utilising the Pokemon Go app). I have successfully put myself back into the starlight for the weather stuff for Frontier House's weekly newsletter(I normally am camera-shy). I have found out for once and for all who and what I am in life(will describe later). I have noticed that I'm also quite introverted and less extroverted(and we all know how that was previously). I have attended a ComicCon(which surprised me, as I used to normally not like going to those things unless it was Anime-related). I have started bringing my computer to Frontier House sometimes. My mom lost her job and got a new one. We lost one puppy only to get a new one. I have been on trial and error with several meds, but I might be on the right track finally(will discuss that later).

So yea....

The divorce wasn't initiated by me, but by my now ex husband. He sent the papers via one of my friends, and I filled them out with some help. Then one of my best friends went with me to the courts to turn in the papers and further fill out more papers while answering more questions. It was a pain in the arse, but it worked out in the end. The divorce was finalized in 90 days, and that's all she wrote there. But from time to time I end up hearing unwanted info or news regarding my ex. It triggers a lot of panic, anxiety and stress. I try not to let it bother me, as I am being treated for the PTSD, and I'm doing the best that I can in the worst of situations or times. I mean...The dude did apologize for hurting me, but that was through txt message. I didn't believe him, of course, because of all the abuse he'd put me through when we was together. I have heard countless times that he'd been seen around the town, but I know that he'd have to be one sneaky dude in order to get past all the legal stuff because of
what he'd done to my best friend. So yea...

Anywho...

The relationship that lasted a month That was an awesome one. It was also one where I learned that not all dudes are mean and disrespectful. I'm still in close frienship with this dude today. We're that close. We were told we were cute together, and then after the relationship was over, everyone still swore up and down that we were still together because of how close we are. So yea. That was a good thing.

Anyways...

The fewe friends I have made, one of which I dated(whom I just mentioned), and the other two are awesome. So yea I love to hang out with them when they're at Frontier House. Other than that they're awesome and two out of the three of them have my number(duh, because how else would my best guy friend who used to be my boyfriend, keep touch?). Those two ALWAYS keep touch, no matter what's going on with them.

So yea...

I take my phone EVERYWHERE with me now, and walk with it on me. That way I get steps and calories counted and can also earn candies for my Pokemon that's walking with me and also to hatch more Pokemon from eggs. So yea it's more fun to walk now to lose weight. It's helping, too.

Anyways again...

I have discovered I will be alright filiming for the weather part in the weekly news at Frontier House. But other than that, I'm not very photogenic. I'm actually quite camera-shy.

Anyways...

Yea. I found out that I'm a wolf furry. I enjoy wearing ears, collar and tail, and dressing the part. It's who and what I am.

Anyways again...

The new puppy, her name was Zoey, but we re-named her Molly. She's a black and tan mini dachshund. Boy is she a handful! Such an energetic child(but what child is, anyways?)!

Anyways...

The pills I was on weren't worth a darn. Now I am on upgraded Abilify to 15mg, and right now not taking anything but the vitamins and the physical health meds as I am sick. Again.

Just figured I'd give a big head's up.

HELLO AnimeEmoGirl! I had about given up hearing from old members when I saw your post. It has been a very long time since I've read any post from you. Mostly my fault as I dropped out of the forum for what seems to be an eternity. Still unsure why I left ~ I need to locate my last post and see when that was.

Any who . . .

Your life has gone through many changes and I'm sure the bipolar-coaster ride has been a wild one for you. You sound terrific ~ like you are in a good place physically and mentally {{{{{{ smiles }}}}}}.

I'm sorry about the divorce, though you seem to have adjusted to it very well. Divorce is never easy, whether its mutual or not. It sounds like it was good for you to get out of that relationship.

Finding new friends while on your new life's journey IS awesome ~ I'm happy you have some real connections, even though your relationship with Mr. dude is only a friendship now, he sounds like a great person to have in your life.

Weight loss is a great accomplishment for anyone that can get there (except all the anorexics out there, sorry but we do need to see humor in everything), good for you!

Oh sweet, a puppy CONGRATULATIONS ~ they are tons of work but dogs are GREAT companions and help sooth us when we are down.

LOL . . . my son does the furry thing, too (or he and his wife did) they are both wolves {{{{ grins }}}}

I'm sorry to hear your mom lost her job, that is really a traumatic event but, good for her, thankfully she got another.

Soooooooooooooo . . . I wish you great success with the Abilify and hope you get well and feel better soon.

I hope to hear more from you in the future and from all our other lost members from years gone by.

Peace and stability be with you always!

Yea...The guy is with someone else now and I have been not so good about it...

The puppy is a freakin' handful! I swear!

The pills aren't doing so good for me. Nope.

The divorce...It was nothing. It was for the better. The guy was abusive both verbally and mentally. It was NOT good.

I'm sorry to hear the guy is with someone else now; I'm sure it is difficult for you to see him with someone else. That is certainly a risk when you remain friends with a love interest. I hope you can find a way to fully disconnect from the romantic relationship and become a friend with his new girlfriend and further strengthen your friendship with him.

Even though Molly is a handful, I sure hope you are enjoying having her as part of your life. Dogs are amazing to have around when you just need to feel comforted.

Sorry to hear the abilify isn't working out for you, please keep your doctor informed on your progress so he can make the appropriate adjustments.

Divorce isn't easy even when the guy isn't an ass; you certainly deserve a better life from what you had with him. NO ONE should be abused verbally or mentally. I hope you are moving on from that bad place in your life.

It was good hearing from you, AnimeEmoGirl; I wish you peace and stability.

Thanks Anime, you are an inspiration. Getting out of an abusive relationship must be hard. Getting medication right is also a challenge. Thank goodness you have a couple of friends. If you are in the U.S., Happy Thanksgiving.

I've also found myself-the true me. I'm a furry. The animal I relate most to is a wolf, so that's how I look now. I feel so comfortable in my furry-outfit(ears, tail, collar). I'm comfortable knowing who and what I am.

I had a good thanksgiving. Went to family's and ate a lot. Went to my favourite place for a free meal and it was awesome. I almost fell asleep afterwards though.

I found out recently that I have to take something for my cholesterol levels, as the numbers were high. Hoping I can keep them low enough and I won't be on the medication for it too long.

Good thing Thanksgiving went so well. Cholesterol medication is a bummer to take, but it can be helpful to get better circulation. I hope it goes well. I also hope Christmas is a happy time for you.

I noticed my pills are causing me to get sick at night. The morning pills don't have this effect. Not good.

It might be funny to say, but it is good you are making that observation. Do the evening pills have to be taken with food?

I take them at night with food. Shouldn't be making me sick. Makes me wonder...

Divorce is always a difficult move, but getting out of an abusive relationship, it's the best thing you can do for yourself. Proud of you.

I am happy to hear that, whatever that makes you feel good is a good decision. Keep being strong.