Prozac Use = Permanent Docile State?
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April 28, 2013 - 3:16 pm
Hello all. I'm 24 and I was diagnosed with Bipolar II 2 weeks ago... even though I have experienced episodes for the last 6 years.
Looking back, I didn't mind it as I found the hypomanic states to be great and the depressions to be mild (but only in the beginning - they progressively got worse). When I was hypomanic, I got so much college work done and everything was just peachy. The best hypomanic episode (and the best time of my life for that matter) was Summer Quarter 2010. It was the most demanding quarter of my college career but I was able to stay up till 3:00AM every night while reading hundreds of pages of history and wake up at 7:00AM (feeling energized and enjoying every minute of it).
But a moderate case of depression (worse than my usual) in late 2010 brought me down. I thought, "No problem, I will be riding high again pretty soon). Unfortunately, I really didn't get a full blown hypomanic episode in the Spring of 2011 and my worst case of depression set in in July 2011. It progressively got worse until I hit rock bottom in Nov/Dec 2011 (I scored in the 100% percentile in terms of depression). I had to talk my way out of being hospitalized because I was about this close to blowing my brains out. I was put on medication. At first, it was Lexapro but it did nothing.
Then, in January 2012 I was put on Prozac by my family doctor (looking back, I should have gone else where). It sent me into a brief hypomanic state and I was able to get #@$%&* done once again (and I didn't care that I now lived in the ghetto). But the effect wore off and I was in a weird mixed episode during the summer so I stopped that sh*t in Nov 2012 (for some reason, I actually relished the thought of being depressed again).
After I became depressed again, my anxiety shot way up. That is why I got help this time because my sweating was ridiculous! I was put on lamotogrine 2 weeks ago along with hydroxyz pam for the anxiety.
I am writing this because I'm worried that Prozac has forever sent me into a docile state. I literally do nothing on (even on the weekends) because I have no gumption. I can't even gather up the strength to do activities I once found pleasurable. I know it sounds crazy but I actually think Prozaz does this intentionally so it will make people docile sheepeople.
I don't want to live if I will be in this docile state forever. Suicide is once again looking really tempting. I can't go on feeling like this forever. And now my current medicine has taken away the "gift" of hymomania since it is designed to prevent/delay episodes. I feel like I need my hypomania because so I can function once again.
Looking back, I didn't mind it as I found the hypomanic states to be great and the depressions to be mild (but only in the beginning - they progressively got worse). When I was hypomanic, I got so much college work done and everything was just peachy. The best hypomanic episode (and the best time of my life for that matter) was Summer Quarter 2010. It was the most demanding quarter of my college career but I was able to stay up till 3:00AM every night while reading hundreds of pages of history and wake up at 7:00AM (feeling energized and enjoying every minute of it).
But a moderate case of depression (worse than my usual) in late 2010 brought me down. I thought, "No problem, I will be riding high again pretty soon). Unfortunately, I really didn't get a full blown hypomanic episode in the Spring of 2011 and my worst case of depression set in in July 2011. It progressively got worse until I hit rock bottom in Nov/Dec 2011 (I scored in the 100% percentile in terms of depression). I had to talk my way out of being hospitalized because I was about this close to blowing my brains out. I was put on medication. At first, it was Lexapro but it did nothing.
Then, in January 2012 I was put on Prozac by my family doctor (looking back, I should have gone else where). It sent me into a brief hypomanic state and I was able to get #@$%&* done once again (and I didn't care that I now lived in the ghetto). But the effect wore off and I was in a weird mixed episode during the summer so I stopped that sh*t in Nov 2012 (for some reason, I actually relished the thought of being depressed again).
After I became depressed again, my anxiety shot way up. That is why I got help this time because my sweating was ridiculous! I was put on lamotogrine 2 weeks ago along with hydroxyz pam for the anxiety.
I am writing this because I'm worried that Prozac has forever sent me into a docile state. I literally do nothing on (even on the weekends) because I have no gumption. I can't even gather up the strength to do activities I once found pleasurable. I know it sounds crazy but I actually think Prozaz does this intentionally so it will make people docile sheepeople.
I don't want to live if I will be in this docile state forever. Suicide is once again looking really tempting. I can't go on feeling like this forever. And now my current medicine has taken away the "gift" of hymomania since it is designed to prevent/delay episodes. I feel like I need my hypomania because so I can function once again.
Hello all. I'm 24 and I was diagnosed with Bipolar II 2 weeks ago... even though I have experienced episodes for the last 6 years.
Looking back, I didn't mind it as I found the hypomanic states to be great and the depressions to be mild (but only in the beginning - they progressively got worse). When I was hypomanic, I got so much college work done and everything was just peachy. The best hypomanic episode (and the best time of my life for that matter) was Summer Quarter 2010. It was the most demanding quarter of my college career but I was able to stay up till 3:00AM every night while reading hundreds of pages of history and wake up at 7:00AM (feeling energized and enjoying every minute of it).
But a moderate case of depression (worse than my usual) in late 2010 brought me down. I thought, "No problem, I will be riding high again pretty soon). Unfortunately, I really didn't get a full blown hypomanic episode in the Spring of 2011 and my worst case of depression set in in July 2011. It progressively got worse until I hit rock bottom in Nov/Dec 2011 (I scored in the 100% percentile in terms of depression). I had to talk my way out of being hospitalized because I was about this close to blowing my brains out. I was put on medication. At first, it was Lexapro but it did nothing.
Then, in January 2012 I was put on Prozac by my family doctor (looking back, I should have gone else where). It sent me into a brief hypomanic state and I was able to get #@$%&* done once again (and I didn't care that I now lived in the ghetto). But the effect wore off and I was in a weird mixed episode during the summer so I stopped that sh*t in Nov 2012 (for some reason, I actually relished the thought of being depressed again).
After I became depressed again, my anxiety shot way up. That is why I got help this time because my sweating was ridiculous! I was put on lamotogrine 2 weeks ago along with hydroxyz pam for the anxiety.
I am writing this because I'm worried that Prozac has forever sent me into a docile state. I literally do nothing on (even on the weekends) because I have no gumption. I can't even gather up the strength to do activities I once found pleasurable. I know it sounds crazy but I actually think Prozaz does this intentionally so it will make people docile sheepeople.
I don't want to live if I will be in this docile state forever. Suicide is once again looking really tempting. I can't go on feeling like this forever. And now my current medicine has taken away the "gift" of hymomania since it is designed to prevent/delay episodes. I feel like I need my hypomania because so I can function once again.
Looking back, I didn't mind it as I found the hypomanic states to be great and the depressions to be mild (but only in the beginning - they progressively got worse). When I was hypomanic, I got so much college work done and everything was just peachy. The best hypomanic episode (and the best time of my life for that matter) was Summer Quarter 2010. It was the most demanding quarter of my college career but I was able to stay up till 3:00AM every night while reading hundreds of pages of history and wake up at 7:00AM (feeling energized and enjoying every minute of it).
But a moderate case of depression (worse than my usual) in late 2010 brought me down. I thought, "No problem, I will be riding high again pretty soon). Unfortunately, I really didn't get a full blown hypomanic episode in the Spring of 2011 and my worst case of depression set in in July 2011. It progressively got worse until I hit rock bottom in Nov/Dec 2011 (I scored in the 100% percentile in terms of depression). I had to talk my way out of being hospitalized because I was about this close to blowing my brains out. I was put on medication. At first, it was Lexapro but it did nothing.
Then, in January 2012 I was put on Prozac by my family doctor (looking back, I should have gone else where). It sent me into a brief hypomanic state and I was able to get #@$%&* done once again (and I didn't care that I now lived in the ghetto). But the effect wore off and I was in a weird mixed episode during the summer so I stopped that sh*t in Nov 2012 (for some reason, I actually relished the thought of being depressed again).
After I became depressed again, my anxiety shot way up. That is why I got help this time because my sweating was ridiculous! I was put on lamotogrine 2 weeks ago along with hydroxyz pam for the anxiety.
I am writing this because I'm worried that Prozac has forever sent me into a docile state. I literally do nothing on (even on the weekends) because I have no gumption. I can't even gather up the strength to do activities I once found pleasurable. I know it sounds crazy but I actually think Prozaz does this intentionally so it will make people docile sheepeople.
I don't want to live if I will be in this docile state forever. Suicide is once again looking really tempting. I can't go on feeling like this forever. And now my current medicine has taken away the "gift" of hymomania since it is designed to prevent/delay episodes. I feel like I need my hypomania because so I can function once again.
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